I joined this forum today because I don't want to be alone in this illness anymore. I have been fighting since I was five beginning with social anxiety, severe depression and continuing on into psycho schizoid affective disorder. I feel unwell all the time. I am never a part of the earth around me, trapped in places and scenes I can not escape from. My family is unsupportive and tells me to "knock it off" even though I can no longer work and receive disability. I am alone yet smothered by people who continuosly expect me to be something else. I want to be free. Why can't I just have a moment of my own?