Ok well yesterday I was doing really well
I didn't purge I was so happy :d but
today I did and now I don't know if i'll
ever be able to just stop it sounds so
easy just stop I wish I could. Sorry just
needed to get that off my chest(well the
little bit I have ). I
think its not purging you have to stop its
having no control over how much you eat.
I have to learn to say no regardless if
i'm under weight or not. I'm kind of
excited because I want to lose some more
weight and I love the satisfaction it
gives you.Is that weird that I like it so
much? Does anyone wanna write back to get
something off their chest, i;m here. :d
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Stace
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jan 2004 Posts: 15
Posted: 01-30-04 23:23pm
Hey I no exactly wat you mean. I love
when the number on the scales has gone
down even if it is only a little bit. And
I also no wat you mean about the purging,
like, if you didnt overeat in the first
place then you dont need to vomit? I have
like a certain number of calaries im
allowed each day, and if I go over the
number even a little bit, then I go into a
frenzy! I hav a question tho, when u
purge, do you hav to keep on going till
you get everything up? And how do you no
when you hav? I understand where your
coming from tho. Haha soz if this is
boring but im new at it!
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Jaydensmommy
Advanced Support Team
Joined: 28 Jan 2004 Posts: 1689 Location: Wisconsin
Posted: 01-31-04 00:32am
So u recently started binging and purging
stace????
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Stace
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jan 2004 Posts: 15
Posted: 01-31-04 02:57am
I did yes, but every time I purge it just
keeps getting harder to do, so I have
turned to laxatives aswell. I no wat im
doing is wrong and disgusting, but I like
to think I control my eating more than I
binge. Its really weird to be telling
ppl this!
P.S the baby is very cute!!!
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
Posted: 01-31-04 04:37am
Hey well this might sound completely
disusting but when I purge I can taste
what I am throwing up so I know what i'm
getting rid of but I don't get rid of
everything I don't eat enough to do that.
How long have you been doing this?
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Stace
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jan 2004 Posts: 15
Posted: 01-31-04 05:20am
I hav always been worried about my weight-
as young as 9-10. I am now nearly 16 (in
a week- yay) and hav been bingeing and
purging/taking laxatives for afew months
now. I h8t doing it but sometimes I cant
stop myself. I dont think I will ever
want to stop losing weight tho. No, I
understand wat you mean... I just thought
I was weak or something for not being able
to bring everything up... I cant believe
im telling someone I dont even no bout
this! Noone else knows.
Im actually not really excited bout my
b'day cos I no it means going out to dinna
with my family and friends.. I dont think
I can do it.... Omg that is so pathetic!
I can binge at home and vomit it up but I
cant let my family/friends see me eat! Am
I crazy? Sometimes I feel it.
But anyway enough about me, tell me more
bout yourself...
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
Posted: 01-31-04 11:56am
Hey well i'm 16 and I have been concious
of my weight for as long as I can remeber
I only started doing something about it
when I was about 13/14. I can totaly
understand you I think I will always want
to lose weight it is something that has
always been there, it doesn't help when
your mam is thin and goes to the gym all
the time. I never told anyone about my
eating habits untill last september I was
talking to my favorite teacher and we just
got chatting about stuff and I told
her,that was both the biggest mistake I
have made and the best because she is
there for me to talk now so I don't feel
so alone but she also told my parents, I
know I was so pissed off but I managed to
convience them that she was over reacting
and there is nothing to worry about. I
found christmas really hard did you? I
thought I waould never back to school were
I didn't have to eat or have people
watching me. I hate the weekend because
we usually order in and I just don't want
to eat so I am always trying to make
execuses but I and up eating more then any
of them and then spend the next hour
purging.It sucks. What do you find the
hardest? Do you think you will ever want
to get help? I don't know if I will.Do
laxatives really work?Write back soon
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Stace
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jan 2004 Posts: 15
Posted: 01-31-04 23:14pm
Yeah xmas was hard but I was kind of
looking forward to school and the routine
u'no? We also usually get takeaway on
the weekend and yeah it does
suck...Especially when my brothers can eat
like a whole pizza and still not put on
weight!! No, I dont think I want to get
help.. Wat ur going thru is why! I
would h8t for ppl to interfere. Its
like, none of their business u no? And
I actually dont think I need help...
Besides the purging and laxatives.
(which I dont think work...Only in the
short term anyway. But dont do it! I
dont want to be influencing others, I
couldnt stand knowing im doing it to
someone else!!)
anyways how did you go today? Hav u seen
a counsellor? Are u embarrassed? Haha
sorry for the 21 questions!! Xoxo
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
Posted: 02-01-04 06:07am
Its ok I have been purging for over a
month now and I have had this eating thing
for over a year so don't worry you won't
infleunce me in a bad way. I won't go and
get any laxatives I hate tablets I never
take them. Why did you start using them
and purging?No I haven't seen a concellor
and I hope I never will. I know that
purging doesn't work I have just put on
weight instead of losing it but I have
started my old ways again, not eating and
no purging its perfect, I will lose weight
and not be doing so much damage like when
you purge. I think you do need help
because purging and laxative abuse is so
dangerous do you really want to suffer the
consequences of this when your older and
can't have kids along with the million
other thing s that can happen the most
exteme being death and I know you might
think your invencable because thats how I
feel but we're not and well find out that
we're not when its too late. I know i'm
saying this to you and there I am trying
to lose weight but I just thought I should
say it maybe you will listen, maybe you
are stronger than me and realize this
isn't living its not what life is about
there is so much more and because you are
so tied up with this you can't see it.
Please don't forget you have a life to
live don't you have plans for the future,
places you want to see people you want to
meet things you want to avhieve are you
really going to let this get in the way of
your life , its just not worth that.
You said you eat alot and thats why you
purge well couldn't you try to eat just 3
meals a day they don't have to be big or
anything I know it is hard believe me I
know. Purging will get you no where it
will only hurt you. You know the way you
don't want your parents to know well what
if you collapased or chocked on your own
vomit what would you do? They would find
out and when you start experiencing the
effects of purging they will find out
there's no way you can hide it. I am so
scared because I have to go to the denists
in a few weeks and I have wreched my teeth
from purging, I don't know what i'm going
to do because they will say it to my
parents and then it won't be my secret
anymore they'll know and try to fix me.
Wouldn't you feel better about yourself if
you got better before they found out.
Please don't let this ruin your life, all
you can to is try you can't except anymore
from yourself just try.
I'm sorry for saying all this when i'm not
a great role model for it, if everyone
could just get better that easliy there
would be now chat room for people with
e/ds. Do you really want to become
another satistic someone who wasted their
life, I know you don't because are smarter
then that and derserve to live a happy
life.
Wow that was long now after all that you
have to try my hand is killing me.
please write back and tell me ehat you
think about what I said, and I swear I
won't go on about it again if you don't
want me to. We can just chat about stuff
your the only 16 year old I have seen on
this forum. Write back soon
). I
think its not purging you have to stop its
having no control over how much you eat.
I have to learn to say no regardless if
i'm under weight or not. I'm kind of
excited because I want to lose some more
weight and I love the satisfaction it
gives you.Is that weird that I like it so
much? Does anyone wanna write back to get
something off their chest, i;m here. :d
