Hi my name is anthony im 18 years old.
I have severe genereized anxiety (thats what my doctor says) and im not on any medicine.
I pace alot whenever I am up walking I am pacing back and forth..I really dont know why. Whenever my girlfreind does something that I dont know about (liek today she was pose to be ome at 1 but didnt come home till 230 because she was with a freind and forgot to tell me) I automaticlly accuse her of cheating or something and I get real upset. I get over it tho pretty fast
i just moved into my first apartment about 1 block away from my moms house. Whenever I go in the apartment I get dizzy and a headache and sometimes I think someyone is trying to *control me* because of the headaches and im scared that when I start sleeping there (i didnt fully move in yet stil lgotta get bed and everything) that something will just possess me and make me kill someoyne or something and I dont want that. Everyone tells me im geting headaches because of my allergys and the carpet is real old and smells real bad of wet dog. I beliave that but then sometimes I just scared that something will possess me and im just going schizo.
I talk to myself. I have conversations with myself when noyone is around like yesterday I was looking at my computer and noticed a lumunated light was blowna nd I started talking to myself about it saying *what is wrong with it man? I dont know man let's try to fix it* and I have normal conversations liek that almost everyday with myself but I know that there is not someyone there and I know that im talking to myself and not a ghost or something. Is that normal?
I have racing thoughts alot about cancer,me dying and other bad stuff that is very hard to get out of my head. Now I have a schizophrena thought that I have it but I know it will go away soon and it wil go back to say cancer or something.
I stay in my room all day most of the time with my girlfreind wathing tv or sleeping(she does to). Im not social I talk soft and I dont really like talking with peaple. I try to go out but then when the time comes I just dont feel like it and stay home. When im walking on the street and someyone is passing me I hate the thought of someyone comign up to me and saying hi or something or askign for something I get nervous and try to avoid that.
There's alot of otehr things but I cant really think right now imr eally stressed. Im just so scared of having schizophrena and hurting someyone
plz help?