This is such a long and complicated story but feel like I need to be judged or something like that. Just over a year ago I met a woman who has bipolar disorder within my work. I am 24 years old and she is 35 years, divorced with 3 kids. She sat across the desk from me and at first I thought she was overly loud and we didn't talk much. It was a month later and I started talking to her and really liked her as a person, so interesting.

She was so nice and kind to me and would shower me with praise, she also told me about a guy she was seeing who used to be her driving instructor who is 42, she was having sex with him and he was living with his girlfriend. She used to tell me intimately what they used to do which I found a bit odd. A couple of months later I brought up the issue of sex and maybe we could if she was open to it, she agreed and for a couple of months we had sex which was quite exciting. Around the january time I tried to cool it down a bit as I thought we were getting too close but I was still talking to her. A few weeks later she came back and asked me for sex and at the time I said yes. In this short time I must admit I was only interested in sex.

In february I moved house with a friend and I lived nearer to her. We started to get really close and used to watch t.V. With her and I met her kids and they were so lovely. We bought each other presents and at one point after having sex she said "i love you" and I replied the same. All this time she was complaining about the other man using her for sex and being so nasty to her.

The trouble started to arise when I changed my job but I said to her we will still keep in contact and maybe if she wanted to do things like go to cinema. She did not seem too keen on this idea and shortly after she said she met someone in a nightclub. The following morning she text me saying "i had sex with him and now he won't talk to me". I got a bit angry but at the same time felt like how could she does this to herself and give herself away so easily with 3 lovely kids around. I asked her if she had told the driving instructor, she said she didn't want to lose him.

She then started to post herself on dating websites and after a period of no contact with the nightclub bloke met him again just for sex and I found out by looking at her phone. I was so jealous and hurt but at same time really worried about her and what she was doing.

I sought a few people's advice and they said to cut off contact and best off out of it as it was hurting me. I then asked a few people at work their thoughts and they said that she can be attention seeking and all over the other blokes. It was then that her ex husband decided to move back in with her and I am so confused.

It was then I did an awful thing in my mind....I told the driving instructor what she was doing and now I feel so guilty. I have had no contact with her since, I apologised by e-mail but no reply and apparently she has been spreading rumours about me about work.

It has been almost two months since I text the driving instructor but I still feel awful, I want to contact her but she doesn't want to know. I really love her and have so many unanswered questions. Did she ever really care for me? How many other men did she have? God, I still love her so much, but people I have spoken to can't understand why I would want to get tied up with a 35 year old mother of three with bipolar disorder. The answer is cos I love her so much, care for her, I want to look out for her. Please give me some feedback, am so confused