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Hi there...I think that you should start counseling. Where's your dad? Do you have any relatives that you are close with? I am having a hard time adjusting to being a young single mother and working and going to college and I know if it wasn't for my family I wouldn't be here today. It does sound like you are paranoid and that you have ocd. I have anxiety and depression. I am on prozac and I take xanax to help calm me, but honestly my anxiety seems so high all the time that I don't feel like the xanax does anything for me. I watched a show on tv about ocd. It was very interesting. In the end the 3 different people who suffered from ocd where trying to break the rituals...One of the girls succeeded. You should talk to your doctor about what medications would be good for you. I know you said that you don't have good relationships with people because you are paranoid that they are trying to harm you...But do you have any close friends? It sounds like you could really use a "shoulder to lean on". If you don't have anyone...Feel free to talk to me. I am here to help you...Good luck and keep me updated!

Hello.

I've been through a few psychiatrists and a number of psychologists.
You must find a doctor that is capable of helping you. Your doctor has to listen to you and treat your symptoms!
Psychologists/therapist/talking, helps some people.
For me, I know what's wrong. I know that I panic.
I've trained horses my entire life and worked at veterinarian clinics. After studying (in college) and watching animals, I have learned that we are animals too.
People, like animals, are born with certain traits from their family. Both physically and mentally. It's proven, that if your family members have depression, anxiety, etc., there is a high chance for the children of those people to have the same symptoms.
I believe it also depends on what life throws in our direction.
Since I don't personally know you, I will say this,
if you think talk therapy is helping you, continue.
If you find that it doesn't help you, stop.
I have found that the therapists don't have a clue. And, I have taken a lot of psychology classes in college.
You have had a bad blow to your self-esteem, your mental stability, which in turn affects your physical body and characteristics.
You have suffered a tremendous deal. More than any teen should have to endure.
I admire your strength.
I am 36 years old, and if something happened to my mom, i'd be too devestated, depressed, etc., to function.
As for meds, yes, you probably need them.
From my experience, studying, etc., I conclude that we do have chemical imbalances and need the medications. There are so many that you have not tried. Effexor works as an anti-depressant. It levels out both seretonin and ----(i forget the other chemical....) levels in the brain. Zoloft, prozac, etc., are in a different class. They work only on seretonin levels. Effexor helped me.

Also, I do not mean to offend you,
but, I have been diagnosed with adhd. I take adderall and it helps me immensely. I can concentrate, focus, complete tasks, think clearly. It has been a life saver. And, I was so depressed and down that I couldn't get out of bed.
I also take xanax 1mg up to 3 times a day for anxiety, panic attacks. I take it when needed. It works. I wasn't sure it was doing me any good after a while. So, I stopped taking it. Wow. I noticed such a big difference. Another good nerve pill is "ativan." I have a good friend that has taken that for years. It works very well.

Remember..Each person is different. What helps me, might not help you.

Please, don't keep second guessing yourself around others. I use to do that too. I had a terrible first boyfriend, married, divorced. The entire ten miserable years, he and his family almost had me convinced that I was crazy! And, I was a very strong minded person, even when I met him when I was 19.
Do not let people influence you. Do not let them tell you that you're wrong!
Find people that don't upset you and that share the same views as you do.
I am like you, I speak my mind. I don't care who it is. I will speak my mind because I found out the hard way, that being quiet and blaming myself for someone else's unhappiness is not healthy.
Let them take responsibility for their actions.
Why should you be the one to rethink the situation.
Maybe they shouldn't have provoked you.
As you know, in this world, we're on our own. Us and god.
After ten years of being ganged up on, made fun of, etc., I finally fought back. I also left the abuser. He was/is a cop. So....He use to use that for leverage as to why he was right all of the time. Very controlling!
Please, do not doubt yourself. You have a gutt feeling, go with it. Be strong.
People are threatened by strong people. They are bullies.
I had open heart surgery 2 years ago, (to fix a childhood defect) and my mother-in-law came in my room and insulted me twice within the first 10 minutes of her 15 minute visit. As I lay there, fighting for my life, I fought her back. I wasn't suppose to be stressed at all, and she had the nerve to come in and stress me. So, I snapped right back at her.
No matter what, I will not let anyone run me over again.
If you give one inch, one doubt, then people will run all over you!
Standing up for yourself has nothing to do with your mental state. Sure, psychologists try to label it, control people that speak out.
So what if you don't agree with someone. Who says they're right?
Think of all of the people that have gone against the majority in history. It's those people that have changed the world. Not the followers.

Also, you need to find something that you love. A pet, a hobby, a good reason for you to get up in the mornings. Something that will take your energy. You need passion in your life. When I don't have it, I get very depressed. Life is so much harder when you have mental health issues.

This is so long.....

Feel free to email me anytime.

I have many of the symptoms that you do. I take everything anyone says personally, I am extremely defensive, and I think everything has a hidden meaning, usually something to hurt me. I agree with womanwhowaits. I think one of my biggest problems is that I do not have a hobby. My insecurities cause me to cling to my boyfriend and consider him my only past time. He loves the attention, lol, but it is probably not healthy for me. Even he tells me to find something I love...He has hobbies. I feel like if I could do that, maybe my mind wouldn't be so paranoid. Maybe I could relax and take some focus off the things that stress me. I would love to get a puppy, but my apartment complex won't allow it. Do you have any hobbies? I want you to know that I feel your pain.

I think getting a hobby is a great way to draw attention away for a temporary fix. But the issues still need to be addressed.

Oh I bet...You just joined today...Is that why, to help you help them? I am interested