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Liar Posted: 10-28-06 14:01pm
Since I was about 12-13 I started lying.
Lying about everything. Big and small. I
told people everything from the fact I had
a twin brother, my dad had died to little
things like what I had for dinner. People
say its easy and I should just stop but I
find it really hard. I dont do it with
any malice at all I dont sit and plan it
it just happens. I hate being like this.
I always no what im saying is a lie but I
know on a different level first and
formost in my mind is that its true. I
live speak and breath the lie. I told my
boyfriend that my dad and brother died I
believed this so much that I would have
nightmare every night and scream out there
names in my sleep. Like I said I no that
there all lies but that fact gets buried
deep inside me just a passing thought and
the lie becomes real. Its really hard to
explain. These lies have ruined my life
ive hurt everyone I no ive lost all my
friends my children the only member of my
family that talks to me is my dad and I
almost lost my boyfriend. He said hes
going to stick by me till im better.
Please what is wrong with me I need help I
need to no whats wrong with me. Also can
you tell me what to do about depression
obviously I feel alienated at the moment
and its making me very depressed I even
tried to commit suicide once what should I
do about this
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Re: Liar Posted: 10-28-06 14:15pm
squiggle_
wrote:
since I was about 12-13 I
started lying. Lying about everything.
Big and small. I told people everything
from the fact I had a twin brother, my dad
had died to little things like what I had
for dinner. People say its easy and I
should just stop but I find it really
hard. I dont do it with any malice at
all I dont sit and plan it it just
happens. I hate being like this. I
always no what im saying is a lie but I
know on a different level first and
formost in my mind is that its true. I
live speak and breath the lie. I told my
boyfriend that my dad and brother died I
believed this so much that I would have
nightmare every night and scream out there
names in my sleep. Like I said I no that
there all lies but that fact gets buried
deep inside me just a passing thought and
the lie becomes real. Its really hard to
explain. These lies have ruined my life
ive hurt everyone I no ive lost all my
friends my children the only member of my
family that talks to me is my dad and I
almost lost my boyfriend. He said hes
going to stick by me till im better.
Please what is wrong with me I need help I
need to no whats wrong with me. Also
can you tell me what to do about
depression obviously I feel alienated at
the moment and its making me very
depressed I even tried to commit suicide
once what should I do about this
this is really tough. Honestly, it
sounds like you need to see a mental
health professional. If you are in
school there are counselors (hopefully!)
that should be available.
