Im 18 years old and I have had alot of bad anxiety attacks over this year, the anxiety attacks are gone but from all of them it feels like my mind has been damaged. For the last 4 months I have feared insanity, it might be putting me into derealiztion. I feel depressed sometimes and I just keep overthinking too much and im scared I will think of something that my mind cant comphrehend and I will go crazy. Latly I have been really sketching over this, I do see little dot or flashes at the corner of my eye but I understand that depression could be the casue of that, and I few times I heard my thought abit loud before I was going to bed and it scared me. I don't have delusions but I fear I will, I don't acually see major things but I fear I will, I don't hear other voises but I fear I will im just a wreck right now. I still play sports, im attending university in a week, I act completely normal . I just have this fear with me. Please respond truthfull, if you do think it might be schizo then tell me if not tell me too, I just want some good information. Thanks
ps. I still get exited lots and laugh lots, and lots of nights just before I go to bed I almost feel normal and I go into a good state of mind and I just sort of laugh at why I felt that way, but when the morning comes the fear and feeling strang starts to come
I know it probably doesn't help, but I know what you're feeling..I have major anxiety and I really worry that in the future, i'll just be one of those people that inevitably goes crazy..I mean, you dont have control over it..You dont have a say in it..It just happens..And I really think one day, i'll go crazy.. And I act normal too...People would probably never know that I have so many problems..But I do..Stress gets to me more than a normal person, I think, and I dont think people would understand that.. My mind is always in overdrive...I always over-think things.. To the point that i'm imagining scenarios in my head, and I believe them..And I get mad at people for things they didn't do, but I think they're doing....I think i'm just a lost cause..But I do know how you feel, and you aren't the only one..I promise you, i'm probably worse..The entire world is going crazy..It's just..Not everyone can see it yet...Everyone is naiive. I hope I made yo0u feel bit better and not worse, which I tend to do..Sorry.
I have panic disorder and I have done this b4. Its jsut a part of the disorder. You not really going to start hearing things...Ect. And your not really going crazy. Its one of your phobias and most ppl with panic disorder have this phobis of going"crazy" and the problem of thinking to much about things. Just wondering, have your ever thought about getting on meds. I have had my disorder fo about 5 years now and meds and counseling helps me a lot. Just a thought that maybe you should talk to your doc about. I know if helped me stop thinking so much about negitive things and letting my mind get away with me. Your mind will play tricks on you if you let it. Which in turn helped my panic disorder.