Sometimes I wonder if im seriously messed
up in the head. I know that I have very
stong emotions and I hate it. I feel
depressed a lot of the time, especially
when someone tells me something bad about
the way that I look. I know that im
pretty, but sometimes I question it. I
feel like caca to even complain because I
have a great life. My boyfriend is more
than I could ever ask for, but sometimes I
feel like I am not good enough for him.
We have been together for 3 years now and
for somereason I still think that
eventually he will move on once he finds
someone more attractive than me. I hate
my life a lot of the time and I dont know
what to do. I keep most of my feelings to
myself because id rather not worry my
boyfriend about it. He has been my
shoulder for all these years and im tired
of making him be that person. I want him
to see me as the happy person that I am
but sometimes I just really feel like
caca, not just because the way that I look
but also because the person I have become.
I hate myself. I just wish I could be a
better person. Does anyone here share
these same feelings?? I was wondering if
maybe im just messed up in the head or
something.... My mom is bipolor (i dont
think that is spelled correctly but oh
well) maybe that could also be my
problem?! I dont know, id appriciate some
advice. Thanks..
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Sudo Nim
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Oct 2006 Posts: 9
Posted: 10-20-06 22:42pm
You're completely obsessed with looks, and
you're projecting that on your boyfriend,
assuming he is too.
Looks aren't the most important thing to
everybody.
