A lil' context, I am 16, I have been preggo once before but I miscarried relatively early on. At 13 I really wanted to be pregnant, which is y I am so adament that I didn't want this in the letter, that also has to do with the reference to a few yrs ago....

Dear mom,

you know how you always say that we can work things out when we talk? Well, I need to tell you something…i am pregnant. I know I am a huge disappointment to you. I feel really guilty because it seems as though ever since I was born all I have been is trouble. I am sorry, I am not what you envisioned or prayed for in a daughter. I know I have failed to live up to your standards many times. I am so sorry; I know this is not a good thing. I swear I did not want this to happen, I did not try to get pregnant! I know you might not believe me, but I really did not want this to happen. However, there is now a child growing inside me, my child, your grandchild. I know you have always said if I got pregnant I have to give it up for adoption. I don’t know what I will do yet, for sure. I can not kill this child, it is part of me whether I want it or not. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me and I hope you can love me and this child. I know I am young, but I was thinking I might keep this child. Now, I realize you have dreams for me, like going to college and meeting a man, ect. I have an idea, I can do home schooling until he/she is old enough to go to daycare, and then I can continue regular school. Or maybe I can enroll in a school that allows teen mothers to bring their children. I know you wanted more for me and I wish I was more of what you wanted in a daughter. I will take all responsibility for taking care of the child, I will be the one to get up in the night when he/she wakes up, and I will feed him/her and change the diapers. I know you will ask how I plan on paying for the supplies I need, I admit I can not pay for these things for very long on my own, but I will get a job asap. This might sound cowardly to you, but maybe if I get in a bind I can get help from various organizations and social services. I will not make you support my child, because I know you don’t want to, but if you are willing, I would love to live at home still. I know we will eventually have to talk about this in person, and I know I will need to be stronger for this child, but right know I am too ashamed to face you, so tonight I will stay at aunt laurie’s. If you need to talk to me, you can call there. The father is blank, you probably don’t remember him, he was one of the men from a few years ago. I know this probably disgusts you, that I would still be in contact with him, much less sleeping with him. I know it was immoral and I am so sorry. I knew better, I am just a weak person I guess. I am sorry, can you forgive me? Are you willing to help me? I know you are probably angry with me and I don’t blame you at all. I love you so much, mom! I only wish my child will love me a much as I love you. I know you’ve had a really hard year and I am sorry to add this to it, but this child is coming whether we are ready or not. I am very sorry, and I love you so much!