I am sorry about not being on in a while, we have gotten a lot of bad news here recently and I am trying to pull my family and myself together. We found out that my mom is sick again, but I don’t think she is getting well this time. I want christina to spend as much time with her as possible, so we have been doing stuff everyday. Wow, I am like in tears again, its so frustrating, I can’t do anything, I feel helpless. Well I just wanted some time to talk with you girls when christina is in bed so she can’t see me cry. Its hard to talk about any of it. If any of you have any ideas of how I can tell christina, it would be good. My mom said that she doesn’t want her to know, but how can I lie to her? She can see that she is getting weaker and paler, and I don’t want her to wake up one morning and her nana not be there and her not know why. I mean should I tell her? Should I not? Damn it this shouldn’t be happening, she is too young and I need her, christina needs her, my dad and laura and my brother and kyo and nathan and matthew need her. Ok I am going to stop before I cry any harder. Thank you for reading, it means the world to me that you care enough to do that!
Kelly