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You need to talk to a counselor. This is not something you can handle on your own. And the longer it goes on, the more damage you will do to your body. We're talking about *permanent* damage, and it will affect you for the rest of your life. This isn't just an innocent thing to lose a bit of weight, this is neglecting your body of the nourishment it needs to keep you moving, breathing, thinking. It will find that nourishment somewhere, even if it has to break itself down. This damage is not reversable.

You should try to concentrate more on getting help on this and less on dieting. I know that's hard because it's all you think about, but you *need* *help*. And you need it now. Talk to your school counselor, or maybe a teacher. They can put you in contact with someone that can help you.

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It's all inside our minds... That's why it's so hard to deal with these kinds of problems. It begins with the whole society prototiping this ridiculous concept of female beauty and it ends with the death of so many of us...
But together we can overcome that, I know so.

I know people are like you are skinny you aint fat but I am gosh I thought about it like only 50% the time like last year now it is all I think about I think people somtimes think that I do it to get attention but I dont I want to lose like ten pounds & I will know I will feel better I just know I weigh 112 right now and I am 5'1 I know I can lose soooome weight even if it aint but 6 pounds but I still want to lose 10 pounds

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i know... I'm dealing with this now. I've been sick, intestinal problems, and huge constipation. So my weight rose a few pounds, like 4 pounds. It's creeping me, i'm killing my head and my nerves over this and I don't kno what else to do or think about, because it's constantly coming to my mind...

I wish that I wouldnt be so weight concious I weight 109-110 right now I lost a few pounds

I'm so tired right now. I'm with this awful constipation and it's simply horrifying. My tummy aches and it's as big as a balloon. I know my weight is highet and I can't stand this!

I don't know if the two of you will feel any better from this, but I joined this site after being released from an inpatient clinic treating eating disorders and self injury. I am 23 5'6" and 120-125 lbs. I have an eating disorder. I also have a personal trainer. I am extremely muscular and most people would say I have the ideal body. However, I have recently become obsessed with loosing weight and restricting. Despite what my trainer says and I already know, women fluctuate up to 10 lbs a month due to water retention associated with our menstraul cycles. Therefore my constant weighing of myself is inacurate. I fluctuate between 120-125 lbs all day long. I know the feeling that you have and I have a hard time staying away from the scale as well. I learned from the clinic about how bloated you get when you finally do start eating, but this is so temporary compared to the long term damage you will cause not eating. When you starve your body you cause it to convert everything that you do eat into fat, whereas if you eat healthy foods in smaller portions you keep your body metabolizing all day and utilizing the nutrients correctly. Then excercize to burn uneccessary fat. I don't know, maybe I am rambling or being a know it all, maybe you don't want to hear any of this or already no this information and that doesn't helup you. It doesn't always help me either, but I find that rationalizing brings me back down to earth when I feel no hope and want to starve myself. Let me know if you want me to shut up or if you find this helps you

Jessfanem,
thanks for your post, I found it very useful. Every single story that every single person tells here is interesting and important, so, thanks again.

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btw...I see you post here alot and I would love to talk to you and know your story...I want to find someone safe to talk too and yesterday when I joined I had a strange experience with pm. Anyway...I can tell you are a safe person to talk to and i'm sorry for what happened to mxgurlie...Please pm me if you wouldn't mind helping me out with some issues and I would like to be there for you as well...If you want to know more about me check out my new member story

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Ok I am eating regular now and am trying to realize that not eating hurts you more than helps you but I have started excercising and like today was my 1st day of my new diet plan and I excercised like a lot well at least for me I did one 30 min pilates workout and one 37 min pilates workout and walked a mile and I am bout to do 50 sit-ups am I trying to do too much excercise plz tell me idk I just want some abbs and to be skinny and like in inches is the average size for someone 5'1

hhi, how are you doing? I'm trying to eat more and to do four meals a day. And you? Aren't you exercising too much? And how's your eating? You can do your abs and push-ups at home while you're watching a movie or so, but you don't need to do a lot of them to be fit.
And what size do you think that someone who's 5'1 should be? You can be mistaken about that...
Get better, kisses.

Lik I did 2 miles today and 50 sit ups and 30 min of pilates I did more miles of walking and just did less pilates but it still is as much as the other nites cause I did an extra mile do you think that I am doing to much excercise plz someone tell me if yall think I am????

Maybe you are.. Maybe it could be better for you if you did less and kept improving it every day... Just an opinion! :s