Sorry if this seems long or stupid but I just want to get everything off my chest...
I was just in a year and 4-5 month relationship with a guy who I thought loved me and I did love him.....When we first got together we got along wonderfully, he was sweet, funny, and loved being around me...And I loved being around him.Then we started arguing. Shouting matches, throwing things...Then one day he got really mad at me and pulled my hair..And I broke up with him a week later.
He convinced me he was sorry, and I took him back (after *stupidly* trying things with my previous ex..And realizing it would never work). Of course things were different..But anyways, as time went on, we argued more and more, usually over the fact that he was convinced I was cheating on him with my ex, which I wasn't, nor had I ever cheated on him with anyone, but he didn't seem to think I was telling the truth. The next huge argument we had, I was at his house, he grabbed me by the neck and lifted me off his bed (he's very strong..) pulled out a good fourth of my hair, and called the cops to have me removed from his house. I wasn't leaving because I was hysterical and knew I was not fit to drive, but he didn't care...
And, for some reason, after all that, I took him back yet again...2 weeks later.
Then, when I was 6 months pregnant, I found out I was pregnant (sounds stupid I know, another story for another time..) with his child. He was not happy...But he dealt with it..Until I was 38 weeks along and about ready to deliver. We got into a huge argument, and I started to walk home from his house because when we get into fights like that, I know it's better to just walk away..But unfortunately he didn't see it that way. He chased me down and dragged me back to his house (literally, dragged) and it was then I realized that people don't care about anyone besides themselves. All of his neighbors saw me being dragged, very obviously pregnant, and screaming and crying for him to let me go, but nobody ever came to my help.
And of course, being the complete and total fool I am, I took him back..I didn't want to be alone during my pregnancy, so I took him back...
And now for the final episode...
On october 12th, he called me at 2:30 in the morning, crying and begging me to come over. We had argued earlier that day because I was convinced he had been cheating on me for many reasons, and he wanted to talk...So I get there, and we talk..Get along fine...And finally he fell asleep. So I get curious, not to mention stupid, and go through his phone because his stories just weren't adding up...And find over 100 text messages between him and a girl who I thought was my friend talking about how happy they are together and so on...So I was right....He had been cheating on me for who knows how long...And I wake him up to confront him about it. My exact words were "how come you told me you haven't been cheating when you have been!" and he just looked at me..And his face turned from confusion to anger. He started out by saying "what the hell are you talking about" to making excuses like "i was trying to comfort her since her boyfriend died just a while ago!" (her boyfriend who he claimed was his best friend) then he grabbed me by the throat with his arm in a stranglehold and told me I should have never woken him like that, that I should've asked before just confronting..And all the while I was trying to fight him off, but as he is very strong I couldn't..And I couldn't breathe. He then rolled over and put his hands around my throat and continued strangling me...And I kept trying to choke out "you're going to kill me..Please stop..You're going to kill me!" and he just responded with "if I wanted you dead you'd be dead by now". He then started reaching for my phone, which I broke (fool move #8544728) because I had been talking on the phone with my ex just earlier that night, and I knew if he found that out he would be infuriated. Well..After I broke my phone, he became even more furious and continued choking me and yelling at me, jabbing me as hard as he could in the eye and saying "you're such a doing it lying health forum! I knew you were cheating all this time!" I tried to explain I wasn't cheating, I was only talking as friends, but then he grabbed me by the shoulders and head butted me as hard as he could...And cracked my head open. I started gushing blood all over..And that seemed to bring him back to reality. He quickly reached for a towel to hold up to my head, and I was screaming "i can't believe you did this! Look what you did!" he grabbed me and covered my mouth and said "if you don't shut up, you will lose your life"....So I became really quiet really quick. His roommate then burst in, apparently just now had been woken up, and she took me to the hospital.
My point is...Please, if you are in an abusive relationship, get out as soon as you can! There is no stopping your partner from killing you..Even if he "loves" you. Please..Don't let what happened to me happen to you.