Nikki- you need to realize that you are not alone, and that everyone is going through problems. You just cant let this depression get the best of you because when it does you are going to be in trouble. Life is precious and we all go through tough times, and then we all have to learn how to make it through.
As for your "cousin" (i think you said) having to go and see a specialist, would you rather him have gotten no help at all. Obviously god sent you that sign that something was up and he is just looking for you to pray not to worry yourself, and stress yourself, put your cousin in god's hands, he will be fine.
About your grandma being sick, we all have to deal with some sort of illness with our grandparents, caca girl it happpens. And that is when we have to learn that they have been here for us for a long while, and if we hold on to them will they suffer? I dont know what her situation is so I dont know if I am making any sense.
I am sure that you and your boyfriend are both stressed as you about to start a new chapter in your lives, you are going to become parents. This is something that I am sure you have thought a lot about. Life is special an dyou are bringing another one into the world. You just need to realize that if you hold strong you can do anything tha tyou set your mind to. I am praying for you, as I am sure everyone else iss. But I guess we dont have to beccause we all know you will do fine. If some looneys can do it you def. Can.
Loads of love, stacie
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