I don't know why but I feel .R.E.A.L.L.Y down lately. Things are starting to look up for me, my course is going really well and everything but I just can't shake off this feeling.
I think its partly to do with the break up. I am shocked that I feel nothing towards the guy i've been with since I was 16.
I don't miss him at all. As long as he still takes the kids regularly so that I can study, I couldn't care less what he does with his life. That makes me feel so bad cause i'm not a cold hearted person and I thought i'd miss him.

Also, i'm still not dealing too well with angel's death. Its got to the point already where people are expecting me to get over it and its just not that easy. I know I will never have another baby now as I have split from their dad and I don't want kids by different fathers (personal choice- I have nothing wrong with other people who do it)

anyway, there is this guy who went to my college but dropped out and he is gorgeous. We are keeping in touch by text and msn and he's all I can think about. I'm hoping so bad that something will happen with us and I sit there waiting for him to contact me.

What is wrong with me? Please can someone analyse my behaviour cause I don't know why I am acting like a school girl over this guy.

Sorry for long post. Thanks girls.