I'm so seriously sick of people. I don't understand why females seem to feed of other girls misfortunes so much. I just don't understand why people want to surround themselves with so much negativity. It just really confuses me.
People have been saying horrible things. My *friends*. Well I really don't want friends like this and would rather poke out my eyes than pretend to be friends with anyone of these girls anymore.
They say things like "tanya should just have killed her baby" and "what a smart choice! Giving her baby away so it can know it's real parents didn't even want it or love it! It's better off dead". And then making stuff up like "yeah she's just giving her baby away so she can do drugs". Things i've never said, things that aren't true, things they couldn't possibly know unless they were me! It's just so horrible that they discuss my childs life in such a way. It really disgusts me! I really want to believe there are good people in this world but seriously, everyone seems like a selfish health questions. I don't know why people are so concerned with my life. It's freaken crazy. It's flattering that they spend their free time speculating over my life, but also confusing. Why do girls feel like what goes on in my uterus is any business of theirs? Well I guess the point of this is I really don't understand why people want to be so cruel... Mostly I don't get mad, but come on, how cruel is it to say that my child should have been killed. Why are they so ignorant. Why do they act like i'm such a bad person, if I wanted to go out and party, if I was such a bad person, why am I going through 9 months of pregnancy just to do something as extremely painful as giving her to another family? I've never been in a fight, and I almost never get angry about anything. Anyone can say anything else about me, and I would just laugh and agree. But I seriously think I want to beat some faces off when this pregnancy is all over. I guess people saying these things just gets me really down, especially since going to school has already become such a chore without people saying I should have just had an abortion.