Hello to all

where to start? I met this guy, 3 months ago. The first month of dating was like a dream! Then we were both stupid, and decided to get an apartment together. Since we've moved in, all we do is fight. We pick at each other, stupid things, and he is constantly bringing up my past history [i dated a guy that was verbally & sometimes physically abusive.] I have to keep in contact [only over the phone he is 5 states away,] because he owes me on a loan I got for him.

He is jealous over that. I can understand why. But.. I'm with him.. Not my ex. The new guy consently calls me, tells me he loves me... We've just got through our third month... He doesn't know me! He was saying he loved me from start!! Recently..He's gotten alittle more violent. Not physically...But I am starting to worry that it's about to come to that point. He rushed me, twice.. Like a football player..And always stops 2 inches from my face. Telling me to have sex off...And it's over. Etc. Except he won't leave. I'm just as guilty...I forgive him..And he comes back. He tries to force me to be envolved with his family..And he's told his aunt everything we argue about..And things he hates about me..Yet he won't go. I need to end this now.. I am consistently getting stomaches..And headaches from all this stress... It's deprieving me of sleep..And eating.

Another thing I thought was strange..He likes to put his hands around my neck, as if to choke me- while we have sex. Very rarely can it just be normal.. Romantic. It's always rough and "choking". That scares me. I am afraid to mention anything about that.. Because it reminds me of the movie "ted bundy." I do not have hardly any friends for support..Except my family and my sister. My family lives real close to me..But I don't want them getting hurt/involved. They are quiet aware that we fight all the time..And i've told them what he's done..[rushing, verbal abuse, throwing a pair of jeans at me.] but...The only way I will feel safe..Is if he moves out. I am willing to take a huge hit financially to afford the place.. But I don't think he's going to be that easy to live with if he doesn't sign the place over to me.

I didn't know he was this obsessive..And agressive...Or I would have stayed living at home. How do I tell him I want him to leave..I've told him before that I wanted to go.. But he told me- the only way that would happen..Is if I left him all my belongings [i practically furnished the apartment.] i'm praying our neighbors evict us from all the screaming he does..But no one has yet.

Any suggestions help I would appericated it!!

Miss depressed.