about 3/4 months ago i started smoking a bit of canabis, i smoked quite a bit. bassically more than my body could take. and i took this during work were the job invovled sitting down, going through paper work so needs concertration. after about the third/forth day of smoking canabis during work i suddenly out of no were just fliped. when i was trying to concertrate was felling like i was falling over, and had blk outs if thats wot its called.and stuff like that. i keeped taking long breaks and suddenly i just (triped out and did'nt no wot i was doing).

i thought it was just the canbabis and after time took its place i was smoking it from waking up to falling asleep for about a month. after the month i thought ok i tryed it now and wanted to stop and did so immidietly. since then i bin still going through weird phases were i would concertrate for lenghty times and feeling all weird n like i was bout to pass out, blk outs and like i need to just get up n move sumwere but as i am at college and work i cnt just do that, also its very hard to concertrate.

about 2months of not touching the drug i still feel all weird, somtimes when i go to bed my heart starts beating really fast. i cnt stop thinking. find it really hard to relax. get scared and the other day i thought i was having a heart attack and as i live alone its scary becuase i have noone there if somthings accully happening.

also quite regually i read about somthing bad happending like illness's, being injured or somthing and i then get the symtoms of it and think i have it. if theres anything else u want to no then dnt hesite to ask my email is xx_gemini_xx@hotmail.co.uk.

i no wot your probably thinking dads got schizophrenia, mums got schizophrenia, i took canabis so its probably kicked off my schizophrenia. but i dunno and want to explore other things that it could be. i think its anxiety.