This was done though a panic spazzem thing so soz lol
(nxt post for familey history)

i am new to this n not no wot I am doin but hear goes. I am 17 years of age, not old or nuffin. Aint bin getting them long n aving read what other people ave wrote. Sumwhat not as serious but I am scared.

Few months ago. 2-3 dnt no time to be exact I started smoking canbis or marijuana as ppl call it. Neva really done the stuff properly n I no a lot of ppl tht do it n absolute fine but the first time I started it I started smoking spliffs of about half a 8th in each spliff. After a few days I was gd yea chilled out as anything. Few time after that at work I suddenly felt weird n is what as I think is now known as a panic attack or somthing. Keeped feeling like I was going to faint or somthing, blk out sorta thing e.C.T.

Eva since I just thought hey thts tiredness affect to canabis or somthing then it happend regaully n everytime I did smoke canabis I did feel a bit weird, I wanted to stop but all bros, mum, dad everyone of my m8s all do it so I thought I cnt rele. I thought it was coz I was a lightweight or summit, maybe am dnt no but eva since, after bout a month I stoped. So somwhat not as serious as everyone else.

Since then I started to feel like blk out sorta thing and I feel all weird for a bit after n tht which I belive to be a panic attack. Everytime I do excessive excercise for quite a time in a row I start feeling these. I am accully going throught 1 right now and lasts for ages and as I live alone its scary if anything happends I got noone there.

The other week I thought I was having a heart attack (think now its 1 of my anxiety attacks). I regually think I have nearly any illness or problem or summit I ave eva heard of, so this maybe anouther 1 of them or mayb it mite be coz of anxiety tht I do feel tht. At college or work I feel stages of these happending sumtimes but managed not to eva ave anything serious enough to stop me hiding it and trying to forget bout it all.

And 1 more thing when I say bout anxiety attacks they usually happend when I bout to go bed or relaxing. Happending during gym exercise sumtimes but not much. I also get high heart rate (maybe due to scard or wots gunna happend as being on my own), cnt stop thinking.

How it usually goes is by me trying to carm down, breath slowly. But dnt go straight away and usual when going thro worst experiance it takes time to carm down n quite scard at them ones.