Ok I have already got one topic out there but I dont know what I want people to do with this one. This is more just for my thoughts and feeling.

And lately I have been feeling suicidal and like life is a chore and that the world would be better off with out me but the thing is is tnat I dont know why I feel like this.

Ok me and my bf broke up a little while ago but things are ok between us. He is still a huge part of my life and my sixth forum schooling is ok to. I enjoy it to a degree cos it gives me some thing to do but there is some thing inide me that is missing. That flare for life.

I used to self harm and gve it up just after christmas there year. I dont feel the need to cut but some times I want to just so I cant feel alive and feel something.

I have happiness but it never seems to last more than a day. Reading other peoples problems on here and then thinking about mine I dont really have any but I just feel so low all the time and dont see the point in life anymore.

Dont worry I wont try anything but I just needed to express myself some how. At home my diaries get read and it upsets my ex when I confide in him about my suicidal feelings and he feels its his duty to make it better but he cant and its not.

I gguess I had best get back to my mundane life lol xxx