Nin...Professional help is what you need most...I don't think anyone who has read your postings knows how to advise you. While you are on drugs etc not much can be done, as they cause such physical and mental problems, so that should be the 1st to go, I know it is excruciating to go thru withdrawal etc and you need someone to do it with, if not a personal connection then check into rehab. Then you can be assessed properly regarding the manic depressive condition. (now named bi polar disorder) I know a lot of people with this disorder and suicidal thoughts are one of the symptoms. If one is schitzo as well then the problem is multi bad. You need to put yourself into professional hands and let them do whatever needs to be done.

Hi its ok, don't be down on yourself it must be hard for you.
Where you from?
I am from australia
how old?
I am happy to talk if you want to. I can relate to what your going thrugh.

Let me know
xx

im from texas. Im 29.

Hi there
how are you?


Happiness doesnt comes from the environment/situation/condition / what you do ...Etc.


But within your heart.If your heart is happy you will be content even with small thing also.But how to make this heart happy? We dont know right & nobody knows, we all have our view and standart but they all wrong .
I can tell who can give you the right happiness like I have found back in 2003 which led untill today. Is jesus alone and no one.


The truth is you dont know no metter how much you tried filing yuor heart they are invain beczo god never put happiness in this world but within him.If yu have his spirit then you will be happy.No metter how darkness, temptation , sdaness tried to gripped you , that spisrit will fight against for you.And you dont have to to fight.


And this spirit yuo can only have through jesus as its written'' im the truth and the life and the way.''
if you would like to know.. Let me know..I would love to share with you forver.Please if his spsirit within you dont have to fight your problems but he will fight for you.Im 26 yesr of single born agian working women.

i dont worship jesus nor god. I belive that they're there. I just dont wanna spend my life worshiping them. And im gonna go to hell cuz im gay

Look you are not gay ok??? Or unless you mean that I a different way (not intending to offend). You are a great person who has given me a lot of advice so why dot you take soe of your good advice and use it in your life. You seem like a strong person and I know that you can pull through, I believe in you and am always here if you need me xxxxxxxxxxx

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Ok I just want to say that religious people can not force their views on people ok???
Huni I hope that you find your way through this and there are loads of people here to support you xxxx

you are right about religion.Infact religion makes people dirty.

They try to do goods with thier human ability. But the truth is
when god created adam& eve , he made them naked( meaning weak & lacking)
so that they will depend on him.

I see here alot people in depression.Infact it suprise me alot when I first read thier testimonies. Wow! If only they meet the real jesus.They would be like me who was lost and now the answer in my heart.He lead.I never try to do good or worship him.But he makes me do it.( jesus)
look simple truth are you happy? There are alot religiouse people in this world but the truth is impt. And I have the truth .

I guess reason I co-incidentally found this side is to help them know the truth too. Morover its funny how people here in this site advicing each other with somthing which will never heal them or cure them.Its tearing me apart knowing there are people here in this site who is lost for an answer and I cant help them. While there are people who adviced them with nonsense like reading books, do that , this.. Blahhh.. I pray that god will allow me to reach to them as much he want to talk to them ,.


Regards
xx

God I hate all these christian do gooders -.- "make god the centre of ur life" blah blah blah xd

Hey nin,
no wonder you're frustrated....After reading all this religious nonsense that has nothing to do with how you're feeling here and now... Sometimes people don't realize a person might need someone to talk to ... To listen.

I noticed you said you're from texas...Which I know is a very religious...And i'm sorry to say...Somewhat close minded place to live.

(all you texans can start sending your hate mail now but i'm just going from my experince.) you probably feel there's something wrong with you...Or maybe you're just projecting the label that others put on you...But you know there is nothing wrong with who you are...You just don't have anyone to relate to and we all need that.


Personally I don't believe in god... I feel that those who hold on to religion so tightly are doing so because life scares them so much that they want to believe that "someone" is always there .... Or that they were taught to believe at such a young age that they are just simply programmed to believe. I was told when I was young that not believing in god was a sin...That I would go to hell if I didn't go to church. I look back now and see that I was being forced to believe in something the same way that everyone else is...Through fear. It would be nice to imagine that when we die we go to heaven and are surrounded with love and beauty...Which is why people believe. The same way we like to believe in soul mates...That we'll all find someone and live happily ever after...They're just comforting stories we fool ourselves into believing to make life seem a little less crappy.


I don't know you ...I don't have to....I can hear you sceaming through your words because these little stories we make ourselves believe to feel better about life don't work for you. You've evolved beyond your environment, your social surroundings and the mentality of the people around you....And you're realizing just how alone you are. That someone saying "everything will be ok" or "god has a plan" or some other crap are just empty words. You re becoming the kind of person that the world has far to few of...You're opening your eyes and being an individual...Not what people tell you to be. People will judge you...People won't relate to you and you'll feel alone because...Well...You are...You don't fit any mold.


By definition, to be unique is to be different... And to go crazy in an insane world is probably more sane than someone who walks around life convinced that everything is wonderful. You'll get stronger everyday...Just hold on to who you are...In the end all we have is ourselves to get us through.

Jonathang check private mail

Meh. Ive been gone for a while [cuz my internet is being a health forum] so I got no idea what is going on. I guess thats better. Less ppl pissing me off. I feel a lot better...Secpt for the fact tat jonas hasnt called me or brandi [yes yes I know. The name means 'bearer of lap dances' stfu. She's my friend!] anyhoo. Hope yall havnt missed me too much
james

Hey I missed you. Pout. Xxxx hope your ok.

thanks dlm. I missed you too. Im gettin sad. I've ruined a friendship online. It depressas me

Ah huni,
im sire that it is ok. What happened????
Im glad that you missed me. You have not been on here much thou.
Love emma xxxxx

meh, to hard to explane. And I know I havnt been on here much...Internet problems.

Well I am here if you do want to talk about it, I am a good listener xxxx

dlm, check your pms. i might have sent something about my current issues.
--james