I am 24. I am married. We both have well paying jobs. I should be crazy excited, but the truth is, I never even planned on having children. This is crushing to me in my job career, and just physically all in all. I dont really have a motherly instict, either. I never even babysat as a kid! My pregnancy was unplanned, I switched birth controls from ortho-tri to the nuva ring and, viola! In 3 weeks! My husband is thrilled! He loves children and I dont want to damper his happiness by showing my hesitance. I know im going to have this child, and when I saw the heartbeat, it was amazing, but my question is, does this feeling change? And, am I the only one? I feel horrible for feeling this way because I know it is a miracle. I quit smoking, eat well, and rest often. Am I ever gonna be truly and completely excited? Its difficult to keep pretending when everyone around me is so excited!!!