I've been m.D. Since I was 12. It
started with anxity. I had started
listining to nine inch nails when it came
out in 1989. I was 8 at the time. My
mom took me to the doctor and he said I
had anxity. I told my dad and he teased
me about it, told me I didn't have anxity.
He blamed it on nine inch nails. Then
in '92 I had to go back to the doctor
because my anxity was getting worse. The
doctor said I had manic depression. My
dad still blamed it on nin. I'm now 27
and i've tried to kill myself at least 6
times. And i'm thinking about doing it
again. I don't know if it's because i'm
doing herion and am an alcoholic or i'm
just a health question that should stop
listining to nin.
Help.
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i tried. I gave up.
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Jaydensmommy
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Manic Depressive Posted: 09-04-06 19:34pm
I honestly don't think it is the music at
all. Have you gotten meds for this???
They really do help.
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Ingi
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Re: Manic Depression Posted: 09-04-06 19:55pm
nineinchnails277
wrote:
i've been m.D. Since I
was 12. It started with anxity. I
had started listining to nine inch nails
when it came out in 1989. I was 8 at
the time. My mom took me to the doctor
and he said I had anxity. I told my dad
and he teased me about it, told me I
didn't have anxity. He blamed it on
nine inch nails. Then in '92 I had to
go back to the doctor because my anxity
was getting worse. The doctor said I
had manic depression. My dad still
blamed it on nin. I'm now 27 and i've
tried to kill myself at least 6 times.
And i'm thinking about doing it again. I
don't know if it's because i'm doing
herion and am an alcoholic or i'm just a
health question that should stop listining
to nin.
Help.
---------------
i tried. I gave
up.
heroin and alcohol are not good
medications for any life altering problem.
And definitely not for anxiety related
issues. They will enhance anxiety - which
is what you are trying to get away from,
right?
Drugs are your choice. You choose to do
them. You can choose to quit them. Music
is music is music - and music never 'made'
anyone do anything. You still have free
will and freedom of choice.
There are tons of medications out there
for both manic depression and anxiety.
Help yourself. Go to a doctor and get
some. Go to counseling/therapy. Get
yourself away from the anxiety and
depression. You can change your life.
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nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Re: Manic Depressive Posted: 09-04-06 21:29pm
jaydensmommy
wrote:
i honestly don't think it is
the music at all. Have you gotten meds
for this??? They really do
help.
i am taking pills for this.
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nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-04-06 21:43pm
medical question this. I'll just try and
od again.
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ccris123
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: Kentucky
Posted: 09-06-06 00:37am
If you're oding, then you're asking for
help. It's not nin. I have every single
cd trent has made. It can be depressing.
Change your music up a little. Music
affects my moods a lot. Throw an upbeat
song in there once in a while. Check
yourself into a rehab. Life will get
better once you're off the drugs and have
people who genuinely care about you.
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nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-06-06 01:16am
ccris123
wrote:
if you're oding, then you're
asking for help. It's not nin. I
have every single cd trent has made. It
can be depressing. Change your music up
a little. Music affects my moods a lot.
Throw an upbeat song in there once in a
while. Check yourself into a rehab.
Life will get better once you're off the
drugs and have people who genuinely care
about you.
easy for you to say, you have famaly and
friends. I dont. I just feel like i'm
falling into this vast abyss or this hole,
and I cant climb out. I tried rehab,
after a year or so, I couldnt take it. I
just don't know what to do anymore. My gf
left me, my parents died, I have no
sisters, or cousins or anyother kind of
famaly that wants to talk to me. They all
say i'm a failure and a disgrase. Im
beging to belive them. I dont know if I
need to vent, get laid, smash some sht, or
die. I cohearnt enough to come to this
site everyday, but not enough to make
friends. I dont get it.
Ps. Nin and apc are great bands and maybe
keane
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billabong2
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Jun 2006 Posts: 25
Posted: 09-06-06 10:20am
You should get youself into a rehab maybe
once or a few more times. I think that
would be the best thing to do.
Billabong2
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billabong2
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Jun 2006 Posts: 25
Posted: 09-06-06 10:32am
And another thing im not trying to compare
whos pain is worse so you dont have to
tell me what youve tried to kill youself
ive red your post.
Billabong2
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ccris123
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: Kentucky
Posted: 09-06-06 12:46pm
My family lives hours away. I've been
battling md episodes since I was 6 years
old. I used to be the loner. Now, i've
gone out and i've made friends. Drugs act
as a barrier between you and the world. I
know...Been there..Done that....Lost all
my friends..Did the abusive relationship
thingy because I didn't feel like I
deserved better. It's in the past now. I
learned sometimes you gotta fake being
happy in order to gain a small sliver of
happiness. If you can make yourself laugh
once a week, then hope isnt lost. I still
have slips where I fall into that dark
hole again and I think things can never
get better. Some of my best songwriting
takes place during that time. Get
yourself some help, get cleaned up, and
see how the world changes just a little
bit. I learned people want to help those
who are trying to help themselves. Even
if it's only a little.
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 09-06-06 13:17pm
Why do you keep talking so negatively when
some of these people have given you some
great advice, why not take it and go get
yourself clean, go to rehab, show people
that you are not a failure.
Good luck to you!
Get off of the heroin and alchohol, they
are both downers, to me, get some
professional help, it is out there for
you!
We are here for you but we are not dr's.
Excuse me! Just a typo, I never said I
was perfect (lol)
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nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-06-06 13:57pm
sandyallen
wrote:
why do you keep talking so
negatively when some of these people have
given you some great advice, why not take
it and go get yourself clean, go to rehab,
show people that you are not a failure.
Good luck to you!
Get off of the heroin and alchohol, they
are both downers, to me, get some
professional help, it is out there for
you!
We are her for you but we are not
dr's.
uhh, 'we are her for you?' mmmmm,
spellcheck!!!! Meh, thanks for the
advice.
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i tried, I gave up
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ccris123
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: Kentucky
Posted: 09-06-06 14:11pm
Hmm. And you wonder why you have no
friends, etc? Try your attitude. You ask
for advice, but you put everyone down who
gives it to you. Once again, people help
those who want to help themselves.
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nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-06-06 14:54pm
Okay.....Ummmmm, it was a joke......I said
thanks for the advice....Nobody know how
to take a joke :? :cry: makes me
sad....
