I'm 18 years old. I pretty much know everything about sex, orgasms, what feels good and why, because i've been reading everything about everything about sex since I was 12 years old. But I could never find an answer to this:

im gonna try to describe this the best I can. I need some kind of answer to why I have this ability...

I found this out about two years ago when I had to go pee. I didnt have to go really bad, I could wait it out if I very well pleased. I remember a magazine had sparked my interest as I rounded the bed to go to the bathroom. I flipped a couple pages and as I did the pressure of my bladder was increased a bit.

I was playing around and I had fixed my muscles to create the sensation of "letting it go" like I was gonna pee right there, you know like I was gonna let it out. I could feel it coming, but it wasnt out. I waited until the last minute before I wet myself and hurriedly tightened up again to stop it.

Then all of a sudden I get the overwhelming sensation of orgasming. It literally makes me moan and I had to brace myself on my bed and catch my breath it felt so good.

My legs weakened and felt like they were melting. It wasn't an orgasm I know this, but it felt like doing it pure eurphoria, I could feel it in my clit. It felt like that state of an orgasm where your "just about" to tip over....

Since then i've only been able to get about a handfull of ones that feel that good. Now when I do it whenever, it feels very very doing it good nontheless but just not as powerful as those "certain" ones. But whenever my bladders full whether it be a little bit or a great amount... I can make myself feel extremely doing it good down there. Just by fake releasing my pee like that.

I can do it anytime I wanna, and it feels like pure bliss. But only if my bladders has liquid in it.

What the hell do you call this?! I am desperately in need on answers. If someone called me a freak, I wouldnt give a damn because I doing it love this ability. But I think its weird. I wanna tell my girlfriend what she thinks but I dont know.

If you can't give me an explaination, give me your opinion on what the hell you think is happening please.