Social Anxiety Disorder Or Am I a Schizophrenic, Or Neither? Posted: 09-02-06 09:16am
Hey everyone, i'm a 20 year old college
student that plays sports.. I have been
dealing with anxiety and just the feeling
of "being scared" the majority of my life
but never really realized it was a
problem. I smoked marijuana regularly
until the paranoia became a problem and I
had to stop. I began having anxiety
attacks around 10 months ago and then
began having so called 'delusional
behavior.' I thought I had worms, thought
I had another stomach disorder. I also
had a cut on my leg and swore my lymph
nodes were swelling up in my groins due to
an infection. A month later started to
wonder if I was crazy and began looking on
the internet to see if I was a sociopath
or a psychopath and would go outside and
make sure it wasn't a full moon. One
thing recently is that I thought my dad
poisoned a gallon of milk in the fridge.
And I had accused everyone of treating me
like a baby. One other thing is I had
this online profile (i'm not gonna say
where) but I would change this sometimes
up to 10+ times a night, because I was
trying to "find myself." I would change my
personality 2 or 3 times a week just to
find myself. This went on for several
months until I finally had to delete the
profile. These are a few examples. I
haven't smoked pot since I started having
anxiety attacks. Just this week I
realized that I was actually back in
reality, and realized that I had been out
of reality the entire time. I went to a
counselor and she said I had social
anxiety, and possibly had a schizophrenic
episode. During that 10 months I
stuttered severely, never made eye
contact, and really never knew what I was
saying.
So my question is.
Did I have an episode or just really
severe social anxiety.
And if it was a schizophrenic episode,
will I get another one?
Please help. Advice is welcomed too.
-concerned
