Hello lovey, I don't think you're going nutso, you're just recovering from a really stressful experience. Even though you were only early on in your pregnancy, you have still lost your baby and that is bound to affect you! Was your pregnancy a planned one? In any case, I can understand why you were relieved when your period came. Even if you are trying to get pregnant, realising you are not means you don't have to worry about miscarrying again.

Have you tried posting on the 'miscarriage/stillbirth' board? There will be ladies there who have gone through the same thing as you.

Best of luck, go easy on yourself. It wasn't your fault.

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It wasn't planned, and I wasn't even sure if I wa going to keep it, or give it up for adoption. I honest had just found out about it...Then just found out that I had lost it, it was in sequence,one right after another. It just kills me I didn't have the choice of wether I wanted to keep it to give it up... I still would've been able to see the life I created. Now I can never have my first child, I feel like that's always going to be empty..

I am sorry for your lost! I understand what you are going through, I myself had 2 it seems like something you never get over but then you do realize that you must go on and their are times that things happen for a reason although we may never know why. You do need your grieving time but then you have to tell yourself that it is not my fault and I must move on or at least that is what that is what I had to do and it was not easy, I was the same way for awhile, I could not eat and did not care about much.
My thoughts are with you!
Take care!

There will always be a special place in your heart for the child you lost but you won't always feel empty. Let yourself grieve. I hope you don't feel guilty about your baby passing away; I like to think they are just too special for this life.

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