I have always delt with depression/anxiety/stress,, lately it seems my mind is collapsing, before I was able to deal with it ,, now my mind is going and I feel like I will soon die of a heart attack or get a massive stroke or something,, I cant even describe the points I get , I swallow all my anger and it just eats away at me, there are times where I get a deep sharp chest pain and I think that is it , my next breath will be the one that kills me,, over the last day or so I feel all my tension being released in my head and through my skin, I look in the mirror and I have these bumps and hives all over my body and I have these blotches that I am convinced is exploded veins and it is bleeding inside of me, my neck and body is always stiff and I get really dizzy and lightheaded sometimes,, am I causing lasting damage?,,will I eventually kill myself if I keep this up?