Oh dear, this is hard to hear. I totally agree... going through infertility for over 7 years, I often think the same. WHY on earth are there people doing horrible things to their babies, and yet we would LOVE to have one, but we can't. (couldn't). How come they are the fertile myrtles and pop out a baby every year, and I can't? Its angering.... and it really can get to you.
I am sorry for your loss, it is a huge loss. Feel free to vent, grieve, do whatever you need to do to get through this. Keep the nursery shut, there is nothing to be embarassed/worried about. This is a hard road, you need to do whatever you can to keep yourself strong and to help get through this.
I also agree with the others, your baby will arrive. God will bless you with the one you were meant to have. Waiting is the worst part, keep strong...
Lori