Feeling Disconnected, Eyes Glazed, Hazy (Page 1)

Ok first off this came from smokeing weed trust me when you smoked it you felt wierd like you never felt before so!!>>> you panickd so there for causeing your brain to overload with fear and panic so what you have to do it quit smokeing weed and focus more on copeing with anxiety and derealization cause thats what it is look it up there is tons and tons of it on the net .....Look up derealization and anxiety ...Later

Thanks bic, it looks like depersonalization is what it is. I'm still not sure if I should go to a doctor/psychiatrist though.

A psychiatrist is ok but the main thing that there going to do is put you on meds like ativan,klonipon,xanex,or even anti psychotic meds like zyprexa or even a ssri like effexor,paxil,wellbutrin,zoloft,lexapro etc. And make you feel comfertable about it but in reality alot of psychiatrist dont even know what your talking about when you say the word "derealization"
alot of them dont even know what it is ? So the main thing you have to do is understand what derealization is and stop doing things that make you feel like your out of it or floating or out of your body like smokeing weed lol or any kind of drug that makes you feel out of it cause it has trained your brain to think your out of it all the time and everytime you panic about it makes it 1000 times worse its like its happening all over again .....But the good thing about this is it will ease with time you just got to calm down and get used to it and learn to cope with things and once you do that it will slowly fade its going to take a while but it will slowly fade away but you got to stay away from the things that cause it if thats the last thing you do unless you want to feel like this all the time like your high lol but anyways .......Later ..Bic

Yeah no more weed experimentation for me. I'm gonna try and keep myself occupied and less anxious and hopefully this will fade away. Another thing I forgot to mention. Could this be the cause of my derealization as well?

It may be that i've cut off relations or lost relations with pretty much every person i've known in the last year. I don't talk to any friends I had in high school. I don't talk to the only childhood friends I was still friends with anymore. I haven't heard from anyone I spent time with my entire first year of college this year. And i've cut off relations with any friends that I never got any reciprocity from..Which is basically all of them. Maybe that's what's causing the derealization.

Yes smokeing weed is the reason for your derealization and also a big part of you derealization is coming from anxiety also you said you cut off allmost all your friends this is a big classic sign of social anxiety cause you feel like crapp all the time and you feel that when your around these people that it makes it worse and you feel more anxus or it just could be the fact that you going through all this stuff and you feel that non of them understand or care which is kindof true cause they dont understand cause it never happend to them before so they dissmiss it and treat it like its nothing and you would be the same way if it never happend to you so the only thing you can do is try to fix yourself cause your the only one that can do it cause nobody else understands what the heck is going on and they never will untill it happens to them but you cant sit there and beat yourself up for not hanging out with your friends or not being social cause that will cause more probs than you allready have so just dont worry about it and do the best you can and dont worry about others cause remember they dont understand and trust me once you get on a good track and just focus on getting better and copeing with this it will fade and then you will come back to this a laff ......

Hi, i'm 22 and was experimenting weed and I was fine for about the first , second time untill the third time after I got done I was in a weird daze like I was detached from myself, then my legs arms even my gums went numb.Soon after that I found out that I had a panic attack real bad one,still now today I still feel disoriented sometimes but not that bad i'm learning how to control that.What helps me is I just tell myself it's just my anxiety it's nothing major.

It started with a panic attack, then a series of attacks. Doctors put me on Klonopin to help with the stress and Wellbutrin for depression. Now is where I am like you, I walk in a foggy state of mind, forgetting the simpliest of tasks I was gonna do. It spirals downward it seems, I know people say you gotta take control, but I get lost on what to do. I cant go out, I lose balance alot and hands always twitching which is embarrassing. During my first attack I dont remember much, before or after for a while. Relationships with family is hard, cause they dont understand. No prior drug use or abuse.Going to a neurologist on Tuesday, but he also wants to start me with a psyc. Hope this isnt something permanant.

Its like what I'm going through now I feel so lost and its just idk I feel disconnected from not only myself but from the world. I don't know what else to do, I'm running out of options and I'm scared.

i feel disconnected from this world i dont knw how much i can take everything feels numb. My chest hurts and its hard to breathe. I feel like im going crazy i dont knw who else to turn to as the doctors think im insane and that im making it up.

I know exactly how your feeling, like your disconnected from everything and that you dont feel right mentally, like somethings going to go wrong, and the chest hurting/ hard to breathe is just anxiety, but it makes you feel worse i know and it also makes you feel more disconnected and out of it and like things are going wrong :/

I feel like I'm walking around in a haze too. I feel like shite all the time and like I can't be bothered to do anything. And everything feels one-dimensional, including my friendships, it's as if they don't mean anything to me anymore, which I feel terrible about. I feel so lonely all the time and like non-one else exists, even though cognitively I know that they're there. I've completely lost any ability to sense time, and to plan ahead with anything, I can't concentrate on anything. It just feels like a never-ending nightmare.

This all happened recently, when something really small seemed to make me forget the last four years of my life, whilst I was at university, I feel like I've gone back in time by about 5 or 6 years. I know this sounds really strange, but I feel like no-one understands me, and I'm a shadow of the person I used to be. Sometimes I get kind of flash-backs of how I used to feel, which really scares me, coz then I realise that the world around me is actually real.

Absolutley no idea what to do...I know that the world isn't really like this and it's the same as when I lost my way, and I feel like there must be a way out somehow but how??

But it makes me feel a bit better to know that there are other people that feel kinda similar..

'I feel like I've gone back in time by about 5 or 6 years. I know this sounds really strange, but I feel like no-one understands me, and I'm a shadow of the person I used to be. Sometimes I get kind of flash-backs of how I used to feel, which really scares me, coz then I realise that the world around me is actually real.'
'Absolutley no idea what to do'

i made an account on this forum just to tell say what you wrote on that day is what i have the inability to tell people im closest to. almost broke me down man keep it real live strong im doin what i can to stay up but its tough.

I'm no doctor, but it sounds like the problems you're having could be caused by not getting enough sleep. I know when I was taking AP Biology and not sleeping/eating enough because of studying I had a lot of the same problems that you do (losing consciousness [once in class xD], depression, anxiety). You might need to take some breaks from your work as well, and there's a homeopathic supplement I've been taking called Nerve Tonic that might help with the anxiety... it seems to work pretty well, and it's really easy to take because it dissolves in your mouth.

This disturbs me a little:
"It may be that i've cut off relations or lost relations with pretty much every person i've known in the last year. I don't talk to any friends I had in high school. I don't talk to the only childhood friends I was still friends with anymore. I haven't heard from anyone I spent time with my entire first year of college this year. And i've cut off relations with any friends that I never got any reciprocity from..Which is basically all of them. Maybe that's what's causing the derealization."
For that, I think talk therapy might help you A LOT. Having someone, anyone to talk to, even a therapist, is worthwhile when you're not talking to anyone. Have you tried talking to online friends over Skype or anything like that? Not being well socialized can make you feel very depressed...

... I don't know. It sounds like you've really withdrawn from the world, and that's not a good thing for your health. You NEED to get involved with other people. It's just human nature. I know this from experience, because whenever I get too shy to talk to people for a long time(or convince myself that I don't want to talk to anyone) I get really crazy. like f**king voices in my head, "Kill...kill...kill...", crazy.

I think the best thing for you would be to get out of your house and join a group of people-- a chess club, a sports team, college, an entrepreneur's society, a religion, a Luciferian cult... whatever will get you interacting with people in person. I think it will contribute a lot to your happiness.

*** sorry if I misinterpreted the above posted, I wasn't sure if you have been having social contact or not, because in the first post you mentioned your friend and then in the second post you say you've cut off most of your ties... ? ah well. :/

I feel the same way too. I've been going through some kind of funk now for a while, and it just doesn't seem to be getting better. It feels like the last couple years of my life were just a dream, and I still can't really wake up from it. I was just having a conversation today with my girlfriend about how disconnected I feel from the entire world -- family, friends, work, etc. Basically I feel like it really doesn't matter that I'm here because I don't really feel "here" most of the time anyway. If tomorrow never came around, that sounds fine to me.

And it's been a couple years now. It's like I'm just here...waiting...watching...for SOMETHING to happen. Something to remind me that I'm still alive. Something that reminds me that it's important to BE alive. Just seems like this life is a bad dream.

And now I find myself one year into the Navy and let me tell you folks, it doesn't help with feeling disconnected. I don't have any friends -- like, NONE -- nor do I feel the need or desire to talk to any of the people I've met so far. I don't have a car so I can't go anywhere, and in a couple weeks I will have to spend 6 whole months on a carrier and not be able to have any type of relaxation...

Is there any help out there???

I feel the same way as all of you. It was really amazing how the feelings described in this forum synced up with my own thoughts. I graduated in 2003 and ever since then I have never regained my motivation or connection to life. Its as if I just lost the ability to be a part of anything. I work at a grocery store and give pretty much all the energy I have to being a nice and responsible person there. The people I work with love me and my boss loves me and for all that I just dont really care. I dont feel any better when a coworker tells me that I am a great person, I just feel worse because it means nothing to me. I am not sure why I keep doing it, I guess I am scared that if I let myself go anymore I will feel even worse. Outside of work I dont have much energy or motivation and I have begun to avoid my friends for the same reasons as all of you, because I dont feel connected and anxiety is really the only thing that I get from my relationships. The only things that I really really feel are little highs of accomplishment when I get better at something, such as playing guitar or a video game, and then I go back to being grey. Sometimes just the very next day I will feel completely bad about the same hobbie I just felt good about. I havent figured this out so far.

everyone look up the linden method/depersonalization and watch the testimonial.

It's your age. I get phases of feeling like that, whether or not i'm experimenting with drugs. The computer use definitely doesn't help, but it will probably pass

i don''t think what you are going through is necessarily bad if you look at the bigger picture. I think many people in general are pretty disconnected themselves and so it is hard to have any meaningful connection. It does take paying attention to who may enter your life that has a potential to go deeper than just superficial chitchat. There are people out there.And you will come across them. Just have to watch and listen to what they say and who they are. The disconnection, if you go beneath it, carries a wide range of emotions that you aren''t even aware of. That is where therapy may help. You could also see if you can talk to someone older who has gone through this period in their lives and is empathetic and insightful. In 10 -15 years time, i''m sure the roles could be reversed. Learn what you can from what your feelings tell you, don''t numb them video games or TV or whatever. when the feelings come up, they probably will be pretty intense and painful, so i think you will need someone to help you interpret them and make sense out of them. Try to find a mentor or a therapist. Sometimes writing them out as they come up help you to eventually make connections of why they are there, but at first, they will just seem all strange. The reason, you haven''t been able to connect to anyone is because you haven''t connected to yourself, plain and simply. and at your age, i think it is a good time to start to think about it it.. who you are, why you feel like you do, what you want, what is fulfilling to you, what you value, what is genuine or has a deeper value. You may not see it but you are already beginning your journey,so good for you. but it''s like you have no map or no guide. The map will start to get clearer if you pay attention to what is around you, take one step at a time and you find the right guide to help direct you.I actually think you may be starting to think of all this earlier than the average person,which is excellent. The downfall is that your friends may not have a clue of what you are going through, so just keep that in mind. There is nothing wrong with you. You may also not have had the life experience to help you to see situations fully played out. When you come out the other end, you will look back on this time in your life and say, "I see what that was all about, I get it". I can say that, becuase i get it now.

You need a routine, fresh air, decent healthy food and to get away from the computer. Stress is also a key factor. Smoking weed a few times is not going to have that much of effect on you. If you''re going through a rough time you need someone to talk to and you need to get out and do exercise, do something to take your mind off of it. I hope that this helps.

I suffered from an extreme amount of aniexty over 6 months ago and read at least 100 of these forums over that time. You never hear the stories of the people who oevercome this, because they're too busy living their life normally, so I thought it would be good to write something positive about this. Derealizationa dn depersonalization are two words I knew nothing about unitl one day I had a panic attack out of know where and decided that I had somehow damaged my brain. That to me was the only eplaination to why this attach occured. Following that, I developed extreme derealization and depersonalization that contributed to my fear of having done something to my brain. It is an awful feeling. You feel cloudy, unconnected, dream-like, out of your body...anyone would get scared from this experience. The good news is....it really is just anxiety. Anxiety can cause some pretty scary things to happen...you're not going crazy. Trust me I went to the hospital twice thinking I was, but it's just not so. Your brain can only handle so much and eventually it needs to "shitdown" in a way. Drugs can increase anxiety and that's why it's easy to say the drugs caused the derealization. In my opinion, if you have anxiety it probably would have come out eventually whether you somoked pot or not. But now we know drugs increase anxiety symptoms...and if you are aware you have anxiety, logically don't do drugs. Anxiety is an intollerance to uncertainty and some people just don't tolerate it well...this leads to anxiety unfortunately. The good news is you can train yourself to be tolerant of uncertainty thereby reducing anxiety levels, thereby being rid of derealization. It's not going to happen over night, but anxiety is very common and can be controlled. I really suggest seeing a a professional trained in dealing with it. It will set your mind at ease and you'll understand what's happening...cause it's scary, but it doesn't have to be a part of your life. So: 1)Anxiety sucks, but your mind can be taught to change how you react to uncertainty to eliminate feelings of anxiety 2) You're not crazy, but I know how scary if feels to all of a sudden feel like your brain has jumped ship on you or turned on you....it will go away 3) If you're like me then you probably wanted to think your way out of this, but dealing with the sysmptoms is doing quite the opposite...instead try not thinking, just feeling. These feelings are different and scary but they wont harm nor do they represent that you have been harmed. it's just our brains way of telling us we're overloaded.

I hope this shed a more positive light on anxiety. Try to stay off the interent too It's no place for anxious person...