I really need help, or some sort of advice!
I have always had really bad anxiety. Ever since I could remember. Recently I started a new part-time job at a tanning salon. Trust me, it's more than you think.

The amount of hard work I need to do is crazy. Anyway, that's besides the point. I noticed my anxiety has shot up sky high ever since I started working. I'm 19. I can barely function at work without shaking, worrying abnout what my boss and assistant manager is thinking about me... Wondering if im doing things right...

All I do is look at the clock, and wish for the time to pass by faster so I can just go home. When i'm alone in the salon it's better... I feel more calm when my boss isnt there.

I also cry a lot. My tears are litterally uncontrolable. Even if I call my mom from work for a second to tell her how it's going to just start crying for some reason.

I cant handle this... I can't control it either. I always tell myself to just calm down, relax and take it easy... But when i'm in the sitution it's not that easy.

Why do I care so much? It's not like working there is my future or my life long carreer... So why am I stressing over it so much? I don't understand myself.

I don't know what to do... It's effecting my life so much, effecting the way I work... Sometimes I just feel like bursting out to my boss and manager and telling them to lay offf me, I have an illness... Maybe then they'll take it more easy with me...

But why self-pity myself and make others feel sorry for myself?
I just wish ppl. Understood what it's like.
I'm not normal, I don't feel normal at all.
Help meeeeeee