Hi snowygirl,
i am very very sorry for your loss.
I know what you are going through, I had a miscarriage in april at 7 weeks and it was devastating. I cried all day & night, even at work, and couldn't sleep for the longest time. For a good while I was at the point where decided that I didn't want to try to have a baby again because I couldn't possibly go through this whole thing again, if it were to happen. My doctor suggested that I try to keep myself occupied with things that make me happy.
So I did; I do not have many friends but I started joining my co-workers at the gym, joined classses, like yoga, pilates and other activities, and it has really helped me. It has made me feel better about myself, and given me things to look forward to. I try to concentrate on myself and things that make me feel happy.
Not a day goes by that I don't thing that, "oh I would have been x weeks by now if I didn't m/c", or when I see another pregnant lady I think about what could have been if that m/c didn't happen.
It also helps to have a supportive hubby (or bf). Talk to him, tell him how you are feeling, cry with him, who knows, maybe he is holding somethings inside too. He probably needs support, just like you do.
You have to give yourself time to heal, and let yourself cry. Don't bottle it up, that'll make things worse.
My hubby and I have started to try again this month, and I bought a fertility monitor. I just keep praying that everything willbe alright.
Try to keep strong, I know it's hard but you have to do this for yourself.
Pm me if you want to talk more.