Hello everyone. I can't even type really good right now as tears are covering my eyes and and I can barely see the keyboard. I'm a 16 year old male and ever since I came from my country, everything changed. I used to be the smartes kid in class for 4 years from 1st grade until 4th, until we came to the us. When I came here we had to wake up for school at 6:00 am and in my country we woke up at 12:00. This was the hardest thing I had to overcome in my life. I failed 5th grade because of poor english. Every day waking up for school was like getting hit with a bat in my head, and that caused me alot of trouble at home and at school. My grades droped from the highest a's in my country to the low c's d's and sometimes effs. I lost my social appetite. I can't talk to anyone anymore, i'm loosing all my friends. I began to worry about looks more than any other thing. I lost everyones love to my personality as I didn't look for it.


I left public school at 10th grade 3 years ago and it made things worse. I never thought of commiting suicide as I have great connection with god, but now i'm beginning to think about it. I never talk to anyone about my problems, I feel like they will think i'm stupid, i'm always shy to. I think i'm ugly and I don't even look ugly. Alot of people have told me i'm good looking but no matter if I look ugly or not, it has cost me my beautiful personality I had once. U can email me for honest feedback on my pic. I never get close to relationships with anyone. Every girl that I loved rejected me and that made things worse. I kinda hate myself for what it's done to who I once was. I can't sleep at night. It feels like the end of the world. I'm lonely, probably 4 ever.