Joined: 26 Jul 2006 Posts: 4 Location: Falls church, va
About to Die!!!! Posted: 08-14-06 23:53pm
Hello everyone. I can't even type really
good right now as tears are covering my
eyes and and I can barely see the
keyboard. I'm a 16 year old male and
ever since I came from my country,
everything changed. I used to be the
smartes kid in class for 4 years from 1st
grade until 4th, until we came to the us.
When I came here we had to wake up for
school at 6:00 am and in my country we
woke up at 12:00. This was the hardest
thing I had to overcome in my life. I
failed 5th grade because of poor english.
Every day waking up for school was like
getting hit with a bat in my head, and
that caused me alot of trouble at home and
at school. My grades droped from the
highest a's in my country to the low c's
d's and sometimes effs. I lost my social
appetite. I can't talk to anyone
anymore, i'm loosing all my friends. I
began to worry about looks more than any
other thing. I lost everyones love to my
personality as I didn't look for it.
I left public school at 10th grade 3 years
ago and it made things worse. I never
thought of commiting suicide as I have
great connection with god, but now i'm
beginning to think about it. I never
talk to anyone about my problems, I feel
like they will think i'm stupid, i'm
always shy to. I think i'm ugly and I
don't even look ugly. Alot of people
have told me i'm good looking but no
matter if I look ugly or not, it has cost
me my beautiful personality I had once.
U can email me at gerfupl@
hotmail.Com for honest feedback on my
pic. I never get close to relationships
with anyone. Every girl that I loved
rejected me and that made things worse.
I kinda hate myself for what it's done to
who I once was. I can't sleep at night.
It feels like the end of the world. I'm
lonely, probably 4 ever.
|
nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-04-06 18:16pm
Sht dude....Ur worse than me. I hope
you're still alive when this responce gets
to you
|
Jaydensmommy
Advanced Support Team
Joined: 28 Jan 2004 Posts: 1770 Location: , USA
Thanks: 4
Thanked:1
Relax Posted: 09-04-06 19:43pm
Wooooaaah hun your not alone, don't feel
that way. You can get past this. Do
you have any ways to vent your anger and
relax??? I think your first step should
be that.....Try it let me know.
|
ccris123
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: Kentucky
Posted: 09-06-06 00:33am
There are the 1800 numbers with people who
are more than willing to listen. Heck,
we're all here to listen too. Type away
and we're willing to type back. I've been
at rock bottom, but I made it out. I
never thought the darkness would end. I
focused my attention on one thing and
that's what I think about whenever I fall
back. You can also check yourself in at a
local hospital or other facility where
they'll help you with your situation.
Best of luck. C
|
PassionFlowerLover
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Sep 2006 Posts: 23 Location: US
Posted: 09-11-06 20:43pm
Have you talked to your parents or an
another adult about this? This might
really help you. I really think you
should see a professional about this. You
really need to talk to someone. If you
keep all this inside, it will only make
things worse.
As for trouble with school, a tutor would
really help. See if your school has after
or before school programs to help you with
the areas you're having trouble with.
I hope this has helped.
|
nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-14-06 14:49pm
passionflowerlover
wrote:
have you talked to your
parents or an another adult about this?
This might really help you. I really
think you should see a professional about
this. You really need to talk to
someone. If you keep all this inside, it
will only make things worse.
As for trouble with school, a tutor would
really help. See if your school has
after or before school programs to help
you with the areas you're having trouble
with.
I hope this has
helped.
some times it doest help to talk to
adults. They just pass you over. Say you
dont have anxity or depression. Tell you
to get over you're self. Or, they're too
caring and creep you out.
|
PassionFlowerLover
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Sep 2006 Posts: 23 Location: US
Posted: 09-14-06 23:04pm
Quote:
some times it
doest help to talk to adults. They just
pass you over. Say you dont have anxity
or depression. Tell you to get over
you're self. Or, they're too caring and
creep you
out.
so that means you shouldnt even try? I
think not. I know that sometimes adults
dont really help. I've experienced it
myself. But that doenst mean you just
accept it. You find someone who does
care; not every adult is that way...
|
nineinchnails277
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Sep 2006 Posts: 58 Location: texas
Posted: 09-15-06 01:18am
passionflowerlover
wrote:
Quote:
some times it
doest help to talk to adults. They
just pass you over. Say you dont have
anxity or depression. Tell you to get
over you're self. Or, they're too
caring and creep you
out.
so that means you shouldnt even try? I
think not. I know that sometimes adults
dont really help. I've experienced it
myself. But that doenst mean you just
accept it. You find someone who does
care; not every adult is that
way...
did I say dont try? I didnt say that. I
just gave a bit of advice. Its up to the
person to take it.
