Right i'll start from the beginning. I
am being told by friends and family that I
should seek medical help but because it's
not a physical problem I feel like a total
fool seeing a doctor so I came here for
advice. I ll give you a bit on my
background.
In december 2005 I got married to my
girlfriend of 8 years should be the
greatest day of my life right - wrong
three days beforehand she gets a letter
that she has cancerous cells and needed to
go back to hospital. We get married,
two weeks later I lose my job at the
railway agency it's two late to sign on
before christmas and I end up with no
money for my kids for christmas. The
day before new years eve I collapse and I
am rushed into hospital with ruptured
blood vessels in my left lung and it had
filled up with blood 24 hours more and I
would have been dead they take me down for
a operation on the tuesday and tell me it
will be a routine operation and should
take 2 hours but when I wake up its
24hours later I am in intensive care and I
can't move tubes all hanging out of me (i
am still having nightmares about this to
this day) I find out that my oesophagus
had ruptured and was leaking poison into
my body and I had crack two ribs. I was
kept in hospital for three weeks. I was
told that I couldn't do my beloved railway
work. And I should look at another
career ever since this operation I can't
sleep properly I keep having nasty flash
backs. Then to top this all of because
of my difficulty finding work I am being
threatened of losing my house and on the 5
august my birthday my uncle who was more
like a farther figure to me died of
pancreas cancer people are telling me I
should seek help all I wish I could do is
lay down and die I am sick and tired of
fighting and I don't think i’ve got any
fight in me anymore. What should I do?
Ive gone from a happy family man to a
burnt out empty shell. What doctor would
want to listen to me.
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Spirit
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Mar 2006 Posts: 387 Location: Canada
Posted: 08-13-06 08:34am
Right, you've had a run of bad luck.....It
is not the end of the world.....Although
sometimes it seems it would be easier to
"check out". Remember you got the
girlfriend and your children to
consider.......Treat the family doc as a
middle man, go in there with the intention
of seeking the help that you really need.
Your family gp knows little about the help
that you need but can refer you to someone
who hopefully help you. If not, no one
says your stuck with this person....Keep
looking.............Life is tough for most
of us....Although some seem to sail thru
it with out a care in the world......For
the most part, horrible things can happen
and it's up to us to turn the tides in our
favour......................Get a plan of
action into effect, otherwise your just
letting life happen to you........I wish
you well and know if you hang in
there...It will get
better....Tyfa.....Turn your fate around.
:)
