you're welcome for the upbeat attitude. It is a fairly new thing for me. About 4 years ago something happened that changed my way of thinking completely. I used to be the downer of downers. I could pick out bad things in winning the lottery! A 'friend' shed some light on some things and it just clicked on. So for the last 4 years, there is NOTHING I can't do. I refuse to let something or someone hold me back. It is extremely hard at times to stay positive and I do get down, but usually not for long. I recognize that I am 'different' and a 'weirdo' but I am what I am. If someone doesn't like it- oh well. I am 35 and surprised to be this far in life honestly. My youth was 'colored' and out of control. My wife got ahold of me and that helped control my bad habits, but not my poor attitude. It took someone else like me to point out that life is what you make it. And as bad as I think my day was, I know that there are people struggling to walk again, or eat normally, or just get out of bed. So yeah, sometimes life sucks- but in the big picture it ain't so bad. Stay strong out there and don't let anything stand in your way. No matter how old or how 'crazy' you are- you can do it. Baby steps folks. And when you get knocked down, get up, wipe the blood off, and go back at it. Ignore the pain and push. It is what seperates winners from quitters! My best to all