I am soo sorry to hear about your husband and your .Mom and your little boy having to experience it. It is hell losing a piece of you but you do still have your children, which helps.
About losing your .Mom, my .Mom left this earth the same way when I was 7 y/o but an operation or chemo or nothing would have helped her so fortunately she died at home and then she did not suffer anymore.
I kind of feel towards abortion the same way after being a nurse and a social worker , I explained their rights to them. I do not like to see a baby, child, adult or even an animal suffer here on earth or abused or neglected, etc. Believe me, you see this alot, that is why I am glad that their is a choice! Heck, I did not want my 2m/c or my 2 very much needed abortions but their are times that they are needed and I am thankful for the 2 grown one's that I have. When you had a good friend that needed a professional abortion that could not get one because of the law being against it, then twodays after she bleeds out and die's and they okay the abortion it gets sickening. I am truly sorry again for your losses!
Their are people here that say negative things about and to me, I just ignore them, as difficult as it is sometimes it just makes me feel like a better person!
All the best to you and yours!