I'm a new member on here, and have to say I really like this forum.
Anyways well I think i'm suffering from
bipolar disorder, my moods are all over the place. I could go from being over the moon (mania), and love everything about life, and the next to hate everything about myself and feel emotionally drained, while hating people for no reason, nit-picking faults even in my loved ones.
It's such a pain, and right now it's causing severe issues with my relationship, I find myself constantly fighting (me being the originator of these fights), with my girlfriend. They're normally got to do with me freaking out, being irrational, insecure.
So currently my gf is not talking to me, I had a big fight with her over the weekend, and tonight i'm going to talk to her to try and do something about our relationship. She has put up with a lot from me, and I don't blame her if she wants to end it. I think whatever happens, I need help to try and sort myself out. Reading about what the partners of bipolar partners go through (on another website), it really scares me, I love her so much and i'm not sure it's fair to put her through that.
I know I need help, and i've constantly pushed/repressed all the pain all my life, and just thought that i'll be fine, '
tomorrow will be better' type of mentality. But now I think my relationship breaking down is the kick up the backside that I seriously need to go and get help.
I've being reading up for the last few days on bipolar, and i'm a little freaked out by the fact that it's uncurable. I could be on medication for the rest of my natural life.