It's probably a process of getting rid of
the guy....You know like .A.A.A, you have
to come to these conclusions yourself and
everyone's speed of self growth is
different. Your an intelligent lady,you
know what he's doing isn't right......And
I must say i'm very proud of you for
getting the divorce papers in
order.....That takes alot of guts!
Although I can't totally relate to the
violence part of it, as i've only been hit
once and strangled another time.....And
immediately ditched one guy and slugged
the other.....I can relate to being a
single mom, striking it out on your own
and also can relate to having a child with
a disability........My son also has
autism.
I know it really feels like you can't make
it without him.....But you can and you
will find true happiness without
him....It's a process of grieving.....I
too just broke up with my beau.....One who
I thought I would spend the rest of my
life with................You just get
stronger and wiser with every passing day.
I say to myself, "i want our relationship
to be this way and he's willing to give me
that..........Is it something I can live
with?" and the answer is no. I too love
him, but I love my sanity more.
And your right, you really don't need a
dude in your life now, get everything as
perfect as you can and don't worry the
good ones got a way of finding you on
their own.........When you least expect it
.....There he is.
Anyway cole.....To me the relationship is
pretty much in the pot if someone yells
and degrades me...........Once you have
reduced yourself to such a
low............Who wants to be with this
person. I know it's cliche, but for
goodness sake, you know you deserve
better. :)
