Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
I Dont Know What to Do Posted: 01-19-04 19:26pm
I cant stand this! I cant take it!!
Ok.. I am as u know..18, 13 weeks preg..
And a few days..Anyhow, I am recovering
from an eating disorder(trying). .I am
doing very well. . Eating definitly
enough.. .But I cant stand to see
myself! Everytime I look in the mirror I
am bigger. .And its not just what I see.
. In lbs too . . . And its just
cuz, I dont got the cute pregnant look
yet.. It just looks like my belly got
fat. . I know, and I try to tell
myself, its ok, its a baby in there! And
it seems like that would register and I
would be fine.. But I hate it. . I
havent taken off my coat in hours. .Just
because I feel so damn disgusting. Ive
gained weight way too fast. Part because
of recovering, and part for being
pregnant. I feel like I am slipping back
into depression which is the worst thing
for me right now.. Whenever I got deep
in to depression, that always reflected on
my eating. I should be happier. . I
have such a caring boyfriend.. A family
whos tolerating me.. Supportive friends
I guess. ..But I mean, even w. My
boyfriend.. I cant even let him see me.
. Im too self concsious..Ive always
been, but now its 10x worse. He tried to
lift my shirt up the other day and I
freaked out. That shouldnt be a big
deal. .When we have sex.. I wont dare
let him see under the blankets. I know
this sounds immature.. .But I feel liek
im falling into this black hole all over
again...
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Mommy_2_b
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Oct 2003 Posts: 811 Location: Brookfield, N.S.
Thanks: 1
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Posted: 01-19-04 19:37pm
It'll be ok hunni, you know it takes
awhile before you get past the "i put on a
little weight" stage into cute pregnant
stage just a little longer and you'll be
there!!!!!!!! You're strong you can do
this!!!!!
You are a strong person..... You are a
wonderful person and you will beat this
thing! You have to do it for your baby.
Give the "cute" pregnant time..... It
will come! Be proud!
Love,
chanda
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metal_girl76
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Dec 2003 Posts: 62 Location: Illinois
Posted: 01-20-04 01:37am
Time flys by when you're pregnant and the
cute pregnant look will get there soon!
Don't be ashamed of your body, you're
boyfriend loves you and you have nothing
to worry about! He knows you're pregnant
and you're gonna have a big belly so why
hide it? This is the chance to be big and
beautiful and have a darn good reason for
it! Enjoy every bit of your pregnancy!
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KariM18
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2004 Posts: 1436 Location: Grand Blanc, Michigan
Posted: 01-20-04 11:19am
Thanks girls~ your all right.... I just
need to quitt this nonsense.. The last
thing I need to worry about is my weight,
because its not like I can lose it right
now anyhow. Sorry, I let my bad days and
thoughts get the best of me sometimes..
Thanks alot*
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insurancegirl
Especially EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Sep 2003 Posts: 5286
Posted: 01-20-04 11:22am
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