I am 21 yr old female and I had a baby last october. I was with her father for 2 years prior to becoming pregnant and things were wonderful...Of course they always are in the beginning. But I truly felt like I was going to spend the rest of my life with him. Then he turned 21 and things started to go down hill. He wanted to go out and whatever i'm sure he was pickin up other girls to..Who knows. He had suspected that I was pregnant and I didn't think anything of it because I was on birth control...But when I didn't get my period he suggested I take a pregancy test so I did and it was positive. He was so excited in the beginning. Then i'm not sure what happened. It was like once we found out it was a girl he was so disappointed and it was like he lost interest. He wanted a boy so badly but I feel like this was a gift from god and as long as the baby is healthy who cares what the sex is. I don't know what happened I look back now and I noticed we had been drifting but I was so wrapped up in my pregnancy that I didn't seem to catch on to the clues. Now I feel like an fool. Basically he had found someone else and i'm pretty sure he loved her and not me. What I have such a hard time understanding is why? What did I do to make him not love me? I can't explain all the details because it would be way to long...But to shorten things up I hope this is making some sense, if not just ask me. Then of course when our daughter was born we tried to overcome what had happened and we were "happy" once again. I really wasn't but I tried because I loved him and I love our daughter and I wanted to be that perfect lil family. But I just felt so suspicious all the time ...And it wasn't long before he started playing his same old games again. We have been split for almost three months. When I was with him I wasn't happy but when i'm not i'm not happy. Why don't I feel relieved to be away from him? I miss him so much...And by the way he is already moved on...Why am I the one suffering through the pain? Why in the hell do I miss him???? He treated me horribly and I sit here and take care of our baby and I miss him...It doesn't make sense. I still love him with all my heart and how can he so easily walk away from us?? Why am I the one suffering??? I can't take this anymore.