Im 16 years old and i think i need help. I used to be so carefree and happy, this year it has been a whole different story. I have been feeling very unhappy, things i used to find as fun and make me happy, still dont approve of making me feel any better- my average mood for every day is feeling bad and unhappy thinking i am worthless and wondering what is wrong with myself. I have had ovarian cysts twice and they keep on coming back, i have been put onto the pill which is supposed to help that problem but i was hoping it will also help my emotional problem as well but it hasnt changed anything. I have had alot of experiences of getting sick and every little thing of when i get sick, i think its something harmful to my life. I get alot of anxiety attacks for no reason. I am starting to feel like i dont know who i am as a person anymore and keep on questioning myself and cant help but think about everything in life that is going on and concentrating on all the bad things, taking in little things as something big and bad. There is nothing really in particular making me feel in this kind of way in my life, my family is beautiful and i love them, my friends are beautiful and i love them too, its just me. I dont know whats wrong with me? I really dont understand why i feel this way and i hate it.. i try to make myself happy, especially around friends when they joke around and have a laugh but i feel as though i cant fit in with myself because im unhappy with my self esteem and always think too much about what to say which makes me hold back and keep things to myself. Lately i have been keeping to myself alot, when i go out with friends i prefer to be on my own and think and i dont know why, i just feel like im not good enough. I have alot of feelings of regret and i dont know why. Im starting to get very frustrated and angry very easily- thinking everything bad is just happening to me. Im starting to get offended and hurt easily emotionally which makes me get angry and very defending of myself. I used to drink alot of alcohol to make myself show out more because when i had alcohol i felt like i could be myself, but lately i cant even drink alcohol as even the smell makes me feel sick. I really dont know what to do and i dont know why i am like this.. i dont know how to be anymore and say to people, i feel like i have nothing important to say or it will just be stupid.. i just want to be like i was before, feeling happy and being able to wake up in the morning happy to start a new day.