Hey there! I was lookin around and I saw your post and I had to reply to you. Just so you know, ill be 16 in november . . . So now you have some ones point of veiw from a person in the same age range.

I am the same way dear. Since I was about 13 I was having problems with severe depression and anxiety. I would have anxiety attacks for no reason at the most random times. I felt alone, and that no one understood what I was going through. I felt used and destroyed that I would live a life of sorrow. And I was mad at myself. Extremely mad. So I took on a reality escape . . . Self mutilation. I did this for about a year with no one knowing. My friends found out, and they didnt understand, so that left me more in the dumps. Durring that time period, I became sexually actice. I didnt have intercourse, but I did mess around a lot. I smoked weed, popped pills, and drank(as you said you did) then about a year and a half ago, I met this guy and he understood me. Yet I still persisted to hurt myself and would still take pills and drink occasionally, but I quit smoking weed because I found that my dad did it, which pissed me off even more. Well soon enough my mom found me cutting mysefl, she saw the blood seeping through the sleeve of my shirt. She imediately sought help for me. I have seen 5 therapists. And none seemed to help. . . Then I found one that I just enjoyed talking to. She told me that when ever I was upset to write in a journal, just whatever goes throuhg my mind. Dont write fancy or anything. Just write whatever comes to your mind. And I did, and it really helped. Then she said that I should write in it at the end of the day 3 things that happened, that were good, and why they happened.
That also helped. I have not inflicted any pain upon myself 4 months now. And i've never been happier. There are still some glitches in my life. But I am getting through them. Im probably pregnant, and im not allowed to see or speak to the possible father, and we have been together for a yeah and a half now. So that really bites. . .

What you should do . . . In my personal opinion, is do the journal thing, I know it sounds corny, but it will help, I promise, when your done writing you will feel so relieved. I do. But whatever you do, you really dont want to take up drinking because it makes you feel yourself. It leads you down a road with no ending, and to turn around is extremly hard. My father is also a recovering alcoholic. And he has suffered from it a great deal, and seeing him go through all that pain was really overwhelming. And I wish there was someway I could reach people and let them know what drinking to better your mood does.
I hope I may have helped in some way ifnot at least I tried.
If you would like you can pm me and ill give you my email address and we can keep talking. If not. Then good luck and I hope that everything gets well for you in the near future.

You are both soo young to be feeling this way but you are not alone and we are here for you although we are not dr's. Sometimes mental health can lead you in the right direction and please, don't take me wrong, I am not trying to tell you that you are crazy, we pretty much all need a liitle help in our lives sometimes, a journal is a good idea, it does help to get it out of your system. Sometimes talking to your dr can help to. You know that cutting and having an eating disorder is definitely not the right answer possibly a support group might help or like a cbt group, their is a lot of groups out there that can help now adays. Maybe someone else has somemore information to offer. I am sure that growing up this day and age is not easy but again their is alot of help out there for you, and realize that things could be much worse. My .Daughter works with special and abused children, I used to, if you could see them you would realize how thankful you are. I hope that you are able to get some help!

All the best!

Hi there I am glad to hear that you are doing better with part of your situation! How old is your b/f or possible father of your child? Have you contacted social services and asked what your rights are in some places if you become pregnant you will be classified as an adult but some places if he is ofver 18 or whatever he can get in trouble.
I am glad your journal is helping you and remember that we are here for you also!
All the best!

He'll be 17 in october. No, I havent checked out anything, im still unsure if im preganant. But i'm going to get a test this weekend to find out. So, soon after that I will check.

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