Joined: 09 Oct 2005 Posts: 49 Location: Baltimore county
I Get So Angry Posted: 08-03-06 21:09pm
Hi everyone...I thought that I should post
on here for a change because I normally
post on the eating disorder forum.I have
suffered from an eating disorder for about
a year now.But the thing that caused it
was my depression.I used to have tons of
friends and loved to go out and have a
good time.Well last summer I ended up
isolating myself and hated to be around
others.I have come along way but I still
get nervous and anxious to hang out with
old friends or new people.I hate going to
social events and being around groups.And
my biggest proble lately is that I get so
angry.And the person I take it out on is
my boyfriend, no one else.I mean yes I can
get snoody with others but it is mainly my
boyfriend.And most of the time, he doesnt
deserve it.I hate doing this to him and
myself.See, the way I would get out my
anger and other emotions before was
through my eating disorder, well now I
cant do that. I dont know how to express
or deal with emotions so I lash out at
him.I really need some advice.I hate
this.It is making me hate myself.I already
hate myself already.From my personality or
my appearence.I feel like such a
nasty,bitter person, when I know im really
not.If anyone has some advice or can
relate please post back.Thanks for
reading!
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NewB
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Aug 2006 Posts: 13 Location: Arizona
Posted: 09-02-06 18:24pm
Oh you know I was starting to be a lot
like you but I found zen in working out
trust me I have never felt better.
Working out will open new doors for you.
I felt alive for the fist time. Its good
for your body your soul and your mind. Oh
yeah thats my magical cure
here is a free website that I joined so I
can get help on diet and exersice
sparkpeople.Com
please try it and don't let yourself and
everything that you love be driven away
because of your anger.
Good luck!
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Brady88
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Oct 2005 Posts: 49 Location: Baltimore county
Posted: 09-06-06 20:55pm
Thank you for your advice.Im actually
going to be starting to work out at a gym
so I can try and lose some weight.Im
hoping I can just exercise normally and
not become obssessed with it,ya know?
And I thinki found out why I get so angry
at him.Seee im 18 and working on getting
my license.He can drive and can go as he
pleases.We live together and see each
other a lot but it is less than we used
to.Maybe im just getting angry because I
cant just come and go as he does and dont
have as much freedom.Idk if this is it but
im just trying to figure out why I get so
angry at him.Well pelase write
back.Thanks!
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DaManIam
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Sep 2006 Posts: 28
Gongratz Posted: 09-06-06 21:32pm
Well first off, congratz on getting a hold
of you eating disorder!
Us guys can take a lot...But be
gentle..Hehe.
The only way you'll overcome your anti
socialism is to put yourself I social
situations.
I used to be quit good at holding a
conversation..Lol. I've been dedicating a
lot of time to my business the past 2
years which involves little to no
communications with the outside world. I
can now barely put 2 sentences together.
Use it or lose it. Fact!
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Brady88
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Oct 2005 Posts: 49 Location: Baltimore county
Re: Gongratz Posted: 09-07-06 13:53pm
Thanks for your reply.
And im trying to be nicer to my
boyfriend.He is the best so im trying to
change my ways.
And with the social thing, I am trying to
talk more but I just get so nervous.Im
scared of what people will think of me,ya
know?Im scared of judgement.I want people
to perceive me a certain way and im scared
they arent going to see me the way I want
them too.
And maybe you should try going out with
friends more.Do you like to go to clubs or
bars or anything.Places where you can
socialize.Oh and mentioning bars,lol, I
like to drink when I go to social things
or when im around new people because it
helps me to loosen up.It was actually kind
of getting bad for awhile because I would
drink a class of vodka with coke or
something so I would be more care free
just about every night.And then get more
alcohol from friends sicne im only 18
after I was already out.
Well def write back.
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DaManIam
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Sep 2006 Posts: 28
In And Out Posted: 09-07-06 14:22pm
I go in and out of being a social.
I hate to say it but i'll drink to loosen
up as well. I'll do it for the first
little while until i'm comfortable
without.
It really takes practice.
One thing that opened was eyes was a
conversation with an older friend of mine.
He's super comfortable around chicks.
I asked him what the deal was. He said,
"you think I was born like this?". He
says it's a learned behavior.
Even since then I go for it, no matter how
much it hurts! I'll get it eventually.
I just keep my eye on the goal.
