It does, indeed, seem that you are suffering from some kind of depression. Paroxetine and fluoxetine are new generation antidepressants (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) with very little side effects. When use as prescribed, the medicines require at least 2 months before patients feel the benefit. You can also seek help from a mental health professional; traditional or non-traditional psycho-therapy can help ease depression by offering suggestions and ways of coping with thoughts, emotions, anxiety, etc. Individual and group therapy sessions are often useful when combined simultaneously, but you will have to make the first step in seeking help for yourself. You must be willing and ready for help in order to experience the benefits of therapy. You are not alone!