Bipolar Ruined My Bf's Life Posted: 07-24-06 22:49pm
I'm in love with my bipolar bf since
almost two years, they were the worst 2
years of my life, I made too much
researches on the bipolar disorder and all
the symptoms related, I think this is why
we still together till now.
We broke up for about 3 months, then he
came back to me telling that he's
regretting that we broke up, and that
he'll never get me upset anymore and that
he has discovered how much he loves me, I
believed him and told him that i'll return
in one condition which is going to the
psychiatrist and take medications. He
accepted (so weird) so i'm back...
After a while of being medicated, he tried
to commit suicide and the other black side
of his personality appeared (his hate of
meds and shrinks and all the things and
people including me coz i'm the cause of
all of this in his thinking), he confessed
to me of all the bad things he did while
we were apart, now i'm trying to keep my
trust, but i'm tired, I cannot trust him
anymore, he ruined my life also.... He's
so contradictory, he says something and
after an hour he says the contrary of it,
he's now more stable with medications but
not normal... He gets angry so quickly.
I think that even if he'll be like a
normal man and so stable, he cannot be
logic in anything, because bipolar is
against logic, did u know that?
The disorder ruined his past life when he
was not on meds, so he can never be the
logic person, he'll never think logically,
it's a severe disorder, excuse me all, but
i'm talking about my boyfriend... It's
not the case for all.
Now i'm so anxious and depressive just
because of him... My life is almost
stopped, I do not work or study even eat
or drink... So i'm just waiting for the
good moment to leave him coz i'm really
tired of giving all I have to him without
any progress or care from him, he's being
so rude and aggressive even when he's on
meds, i'm beginning to give up on him,
love is also ruined (not too much but the
trust is off).
Does anyone have an advise for me, perhaps
it can give a little more hope in this
relationship, or it can calm me
down????????
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Macias
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I Had No Reply Posted: 07-29-06 20:49pm
I took valium, trying to calm down my
brain. And I just escaped by sleeping all
day long since i'm in holiday, (escaped
from my thoughts and doubts on my
boyfriend) everyone told me that I have to
give him another chance and try to trust
him... Now I begin to give him again my
trust and to searching always for excuses
for him... The shrink told him that he
ruined his time and youth chatting on the
internet and living in a virtual world
that doesn't exist... And he advised him
not to return to chat or loosing his
time....Etc besides working and not to
stay alone for a long time.
After getting out of the hospital, I
thought he'll be a different person, and
will do all the advices. But no
way................
The first thing he did after arriving at
home was (the internet) and the second day
he didn't go to work, now a week passed
and he didn't go to his work and he's
spending all his time chatting with people
online.... And back to back, now i'm
worried that he stops his medications...
He began also to lie about a small
things....
I don't know what to do, everytime I give
him a chance he destroy it...
He also didn't go to the psychiatrist at
the appointment...
Do you think he's stopping his medications
gradually?
