I have a serious problem. My girlfriend and I have a long distance relationship. I live in georgia, right by the florida border, but she lives all the way in iowa. She used to live in my town, but then her family moved up there. We told each other we will still try to keep it going. We talked almost every day on the phone or on msn messenger. Lately she started pressuring me into sex. I, being stupid, told her that I will do whatever she wants, because I loved her.
A few weeks ago, my girlfriend and I had sex while I was visiting her. I immediately regretted doing it and had a bad feeling. She called me up the other day telling me that she thinks she is pregnant. I have no idea what to do now. I am so nervous I can't sleep and I have no appetite. I am so worried about the future, about what I am going to do if she is pregnant. Right now, I am going into my senior year of high school and she is going to be a junior. I realize that this could mess up our lives, but she doesn't understand the gravity of the situation. So far only a few close friends know about it, but if my parents found out, they would kill me. My life as I know it would be over. I am worried about her too. I tried talking to her about what we are going to do, but she tells me that she isn't worried about that. She says that what she is worrying about is if I will stay or not. I don’t know what to do. Right now I am feeling a little bit used and betrayed because I feel she pressured me into having sex. I am trying to calm down, but I can't. All I have been thinking about is what is going to happen. I know that my parents cannot find out or my life is over. But at the same time, I know that the more I hide it, the more it will come out.
Our parents don't know each other personally, and hers didn't even really know we were going out, so I am not too worried about them telling my parents. My girlfriend told me that she will say that it is another guy. But even if they do not tell my parents, my girlfriend still has friends here in ga. Some of her friends' parents are friends with my parents, so I am worrying that if they find out she is pregnant, they will put one and one together and think that I am the father. Then they will tell their parents, and their parents will tell mine. I feel bad for thinking about leaving her now, but I do not see a way that I can still stay in contact without my parents finding out.
This whole situation has gotten me sick, I fear for our futures. I cannot stop thinking about what she is going to do. Having a baby in high school could be devastating. This is all I think about anymore, I am so scared right now. I am usually not the kind of guy that cries, but a few nights ago, I didn't sleep, I was crying in my bed for the entire night. I am so confused and do not know what to do. Please, if you have any suggestions on what we should do, please tell me.
Edit: I forgot to put this in there: she does not want an abortion, so that option is out.