I also had a Full Hysterectomy at the age of 23, I'm now 36. I started HRT right away. So it has been 13 yrs now, and they have finally decided to try & get me off it.
I some days feel like I'm seriously going CRAZY... There are days where I feel like I'm sorta on the Normal Page, but most times I feel like I'm lost.
I have a Fiance' that I love very much, and he loves me just the same. But there are days that I feel like the littlest thing he does drives me nuts. If he chews to loud, if he doesn't answer me in the right tone of voice, if he forgets to take the garbage out, if he snores to loud, pretty much whatever he does, I find something to !**@! him out for.
There are days that I feel like I could just check out of this world, because I can't handle it. I have isulated myself from people, I no longer want to hang out, it feels like a big chore to me. And as for meeting new people, not a chance, I feel like everyone is wondering why I'm childless, and some even have the nerve to ask me why I don't have kids. And most times I have to fight to get the words out, "I can't have any."
I wish everyday now, that I never did this to my body. I never was told by anyone how much it can & will change you. The Dr's never told me about the crazy side effects it would have.
So my Sisters, yor not alone feeling like your body has aged 50 yrs over nite, and your mind also.
There are times I will get up to do something, and totally forget what it was I was going to do. Some days I scare myself, wondering how I'm goin to be in 50 yrs if I'm this bad now.
Maybe I need to be on Anxiety pills, or something. I don't know...All I can say is, If I could turn back the hands of time I certainly would....
And as for Sex Drive, LOL I don't even know what that is anymore, all I know is I miss it ....
All The Best