Let me explain... I can remember back when I was like 5 or so and I was sitting in the bathtub looking at my big round tummy, thinking that it was gross and wondering if it would ever go away. Also, I remember all throughout elementary school and beyond how I wanted to be the smallest of all of the girls in my classes and I weighed everyday to make sure that I was. Now, please note that my mother who I lived alone with has never been a huge dieter and she's not a tiny woman, well she's short, but she's not super skinny so this wasn't a product of watching her. I really think that my anorexia was always in me. Of course growing up being a cheerleader and gymnast fueled my problem, but I still had the tendencies much earlier before then. Any thoughts or insights are appreciated.