Just be strong for you and your baby! I know you can do it! Think about other things to keep your mind off wanting to do it. Like watch tv or go for a walk, something to distract you.

Kari! I know I just told you this but i'm going to tell you again....You are such a strong woman and I know you've worked so hard to get where you are right now...Dont throw that away, you're my support so i'm going to be yours...Think of that precious angel inside of you right now...That life that will be calling you mommy soon enough...Lets make a pact...I won't restrict if you won't purge, I know it's hard, you know what i'm going through right now, but I know if we stay strong for our babies and for eachother we can make it...I know we can..I also know that it's soo much easier said than done, but that's where your inner strength comes in...The strength I know you have so much of! You saw what I went through yesterday, but like I told you today, it got better...Today I feel like there is hope, so keep that in your head...It will get easier, it will get better....Have faith in yourself that you can and will do this....I'm here for you!
Talk to you soon,
vanessa

Well everyone. . I hope your not mad at me. Unfortunatly I didnt get to see your responses until afterward.. I went to get my mind off of it. .Thought taking a relaxing warm bath would help. .But the bathroom was the wrong place to go... I did purge.. But only a little bit and then I made myself stop. I know I kept at least half of it and I so regret doing it. .I cried afterwards.. But I cant let this get me down. . I know its terrible to purge while being pregnant especially but I also know some poeple have morning sickness so 1 purge isnt going to make me lose all hope. I am promising myself not to ever do it again and vanessa I will do that pact with you ok? ? Im so sorry to everyone and to my unborn baby about what I did.. But I knew I would have another bad day. Ive purged 3 times in the past month and a half. .Which isnt good. .But for me it was a huge leap for improvment. I felt so guilty afterward I dont even think I could do it again anyhow. I feel like such a bad person.

Kari,
sweetie it's okay! I'm not mad at you, I know how overpowering it is...I feel so bad right now because I feel like i'm not doing enough to make you realize that you can overcome this...I have yet to eat anything besides that cereal this morning and dont intend on it for the rest of the day, because I feel so good knowing that i'm not consuming calories that will end up hanging off my thighs..For about a week I forgot how good it felt to restrict...So I guess you can say we're even huh? We can't self-destruct anymore, because it's no longer self, it's mutual destruction, because we're harming our children and ourselves...This is really hard for me to say kari, but I need your help. I'm such a strong person, but ana is my weakness, and I truly don't know if and how I can do this. The feelings of ana have been so overpowering that mia has come into mind. I can't go that route, that's the last thing I need right now. I told myself I would never fall victim to mia, but now I don't feel so strongly anymore. I need to stay strong but don't know how....It's easy for me to help others because I know how they feel, but when I try to help myself I constantly fight it...My doctor told me to journal my feelings and I have been..Last night was not a good night at all and wrote about 3 pages worth of how I was feeling...I read it today and it made me sick, I can't let this take over but it is....I need a support system but don't know where to go to get it....My mom knows about ana and knows how bad it can and will get if I dont stop....I need to think about my baby and tom, I can't do this to either of them....I feel like a hypocrite and that makes me so mad. Im so disappointed in myself.

Thank you so much girls***

and vanessa.. U cant think about how good it feels to restrict... U have to only think about the bad things your e/d brings.. Like harm to your baby. . Ii sure hope u will eat more then cereal today. . Your baby needs more then some grain....U know that hun. .But I know how hard it is. You can do it . . I seriously know it. .Maybe we could do that pact together ? I wont purge anymore. . . U just gotta focus on eating enough.. And healthy.. Like no less then 1,500 cals. . If u eat that much, fat wont be hanging off anywhere~ but your baby will get its nutritional needs. You just have to be stronger then that voice. And mia.. I hope u never go that way. . Thats where I was most miserable..And u lose all control... I feel bad for doing it today. .But I wont do it again.. Please try and work your hardest with me okay? U can do this..

Aww sweetie,
i wish I could help you. I know how hard this must be for you. Please just keep trying as hard as you can to do right by your baby. Good luck. We're all here for you.
Love,
chanda