Marvin,
maybe it is more that I fear going into bed at night because I won't fall asleep. My mind whirls and then I get frightened that I am not going to sleep - so then the worrying of falling asleep begins. .. This all began 40 years ago, when I was young. I was sleeping and my phone in the bedroom rang and startled me; the next night the blind fell and woke me and startled me; the following night, the phone rang again and awokened me, and that began my mind worrying about what is going to happen tonight - will I fall asleep and if I don't, I need to get up for work at 7 am. This went on nite after nite and I became really nervous and sick over it. I finally went to a doctor. He had said if I had gone to him when those worrisome thoughts it first began, he would have given me sleeping pills just to put me to sleep so I would not have had to worry about the not falling asleep. Those thoughts were ingrained in my mind and needless to say, they are still there - 40 years later. .. Well, that is what started my insomnia which never not got any better and I am still frightened to go into bed b/c I know I will not fall asleep. Sounds crazy but that is what happened. I wonder what disorder this would be called? No doctor could help me or tell me how to get the thoughts out of my mind. I don't think a sleep doctor could help me.
Thanks for listening,
marionalma