a Complicated Disorder Bp Boyfriend Posted: 06-24-06 22:38pm
Now we r back to each other, my 27 years
old boyfriend is bipolar i, we broke up
months ago, but he came back to me
realizing that i'm the one for him, and
wanna marry me... We have been together
for 2 years, and like the most people who
have bipolar boyfriend said, he was like
on and off everyday, he wasn't taking any
meds during these two years, but when he
came back to me, I told him that I can't
come back until he visit the shrink and
take medications. He accepted and went
with me to the psychiatrist and now he's
on wellbutrin and orapex but stopped
lamictal.
Anyway, I thought that I shall give him
the chance, perhaps he can do it this
time... I've read many times that bp
people when they take their meds they
become stable and good.
But I think that the meds he took wasn't
working in the right way, he started a
blue episode (severe depression) and tried
to commit suicide yesterday, we took him
to the hospital and thanks god nothing
happened, he took an over dose of orapex,
but it wasen't that much to affect him.
Today he went to the shrink who told him
that he has to stay in the hospital for
about a week to have a full care ...
My problem is: when he was starting this
blue episode he began to tell me some bad
things he made, before he knows me and
during and after we broke up. The bad
things were that he had many relationships
with many girls just for sex, not more...
And he told me that he cannot make the
depression an excuse for him... While i'm
saying to myself that's a good excuse for
him. I'm trying to encourage myself and
accept.
The causes of this episode are the
regrets, he's regretting all what he did
the past 5 years, telling me that he's not
a good person to rely on and that bad
friends abused him while he was disturbed
and that he was so weak, and didn't
realize what was wrong and what was right
and so on...
And he tried to kill himself for these
reasons...
Anyway, i'm so optimistic now, that he can
be good (god willing) and stable. He
started to pray but he still cannot go to
work :s
he's so angelic, but sometimes he cannot
calculate consequences of such actions so
he can do wrong things, and realize the
wrong he did once he's stable and start
regretting what he did...
May someone give me some advices? I love
him and I don't him to cheat on me in the
future. Can medications make a good
progress with him?
Thank you...
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Macias
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jan 2005 Posts: 52 Location: , Germany
Posted: 06-25-06 18:39pm
This is his first day in the hospital, he
forgot that he told me that he'll go to
the hospital, I called him, he told me
that he went to this hospital by mistake,
and that he was kidding acting that he's
depresed... And told me that he's not
depresed at all and that he doesn't need
any medications and so on... He tried to
commit suicide the day before yesterday.
And the psychiatrist told him that he's in
severe depression from a long
time...That's why he needs to go the
hospital...
My bf told me today that we r not more
than just simple friends, and that he
arrived to the hospital for me ( he means
that he started to take medications to get
back to me, coz it was my condition) he
told me also that he cannot deal with me
again, because it's me who drove him till
he went to this hospital... I know that
all these words are not true because first
of all he's still so depressed, second:
because he feels that he's different from
all natural people just because he's in
the hospital. So I know that I shall wait
untill he'll be ok.
But i'm a little worried that this idea (
that it's me who drove him to go to the
hospital ) be saved in his mind.
I asked him if he'll miss me, he said yes
i'll miss you.
Please someone reply me, i'm so sad and I
need some advices...
I'm trying my best to forget the past, and
his strange relationships...
