Q: Need Some Support
asked by:
CrombieChic16
on January 15th, 2004
Active User, very eHealthy
Hey girls,
today has been one of those "days" for me....My specialist wants my mom to weigh me every week and call her with the results...Well my mom just weighed me(im not supposed to see the #s) and im now 108 1/2...I am absolutely disgusted right now...I feel fat and havent eaten a thing all day...Im also 10.3 weeks pregnant which I know is absolutely horrible because im denying my child the thing he/she needs to grow! It makes me sick, but at the same time I feel like I cant control it...Its taken over my life completely and I feel like I want to scream because im so unhappy right now. I feel like crawling into a corner and just crying...Im so angry right now, I know I have to stay strong but I dont know if I can. I didnt think 5lbs would be as hard to deal with as it is(was 103 last week). It feels like 20 and I am so incredibly tempted to just shut down and not put a thing in my mouth again...I suffer from ana and have just recently admitted to it, but it hasnt made the process any easier. I don't know what to do, i'm so disappointed in myself for looking the way I do right now....I just want to make it all go away!!!
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